27 Feb, 2011

Amazing

So.. this weekend I went para sailing with my boyfriend.. one of the most amazing experiences ever! Highly recommended!

06 Jan, 2011

T.T

One of my friends commited suicide December 30th... only 16 years old... I Love You George!!! T.T R.I.P Please.. No one ever talk or think about doing this... there's nothing in life that makes it right.. times get hard.. go to a friend.. be opptimistic... don't give up.. don't take the easy way out.. You'll get older, and be able to get away from whatever it is. He left everyone who loved him dearly behind.. When he could have just let it go and wait it out... sure.. at that moment.. you think oh no one cares.. life s***s.. but guess what.. people do, and thats how life goes sometimes.. but not always. Tons care. So don't leave them behind or make them suffer from a broken heart. Wait it out... things will work out... Enjoy your life, it's a very precious thing. Please consider the consequences... don't do it... be strong.

23 Dec, 2010

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh and a Happy New Year!! lol

23 Dec, 2010

!!!!!!

I hope everyone has a safe, and healthy Merry Christmas!

31 May, 2010

oh and...

HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY!

31 May, 2010

?

What if I died? would anyone care? jw... like I'm not going suicidal or anything I swear! I just logged in and thought that since I dont really talk to my old friends on here... jw if they still care? leave a message in inbox? oh and update... I'm sick and I'm talking like a guy going through p***rty! haha ^.^ it s***s a**! :(

04 Apr, 2010

Since I'm here...

HaPpY eAsTeR eVeRyOnE1!1!1!

27 Dec, 2009

Wow

Wow really? the day I come back is the day none of my friends are on.....

26 Dec, 2009

suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup peoples!!!!!!!!!

lol anywaaaaaaaaay..... I'm gonna be on for a whiiiiiilllleee tonight cuuuuz... theres nothing else to do >.< sooooo yeah wanna talk? LETS TALK! well... if you're a friend... LETS TALK! if not... thennnn... keep to yourself :P

22 Sep, 2009

Done

I decided since I can hardly get on now... and since not many people talk to me on here... I'm gonna quit... I mean it this time.. I wont like quit quit when I get the time I'll get on and see if anyone left me a message... but yeah if anyone actually does care about keeping in touch just email me. I doubt anyone will because last time no one ever emailed me and when I came on they were all like " i missed you soooooo much!" and then I thought okay yeah if you really cared you would have emailed me because I personally gave my email to the people I thought would like to keep in touch but apparently like always I was wrong... so yeah anyway if anyone cares my email is [email protected] so yeah... bye have a good life I guess...

01 Aug, 2009

Wow... pretty sad...

You know it's pretty sad.... I was just in the new chat and some of my old friends were talking about how they cut their self with a knife.... and then all these girls are all like no no no no no! please no! or something and then they're talking about the reason they did it was cuz someone online doesn't like them so they wanna commit suicide WOW big whoop this is a freaking chatting site and you don't even know these people and you get all sad and crap just cuz someone called you ugly or some bulls***... I know I used to get all emotional over this kinda crap but now that I look at it...it's pointless... and... these people are also the f***ing emo or wanna be emos that take over the chat and call themselves popular if you would say... and it's stupid... cuz we all know 99.9% of everything they say like that about suicide is totally not true at all... and are most likely saying it to be the talk of the chat for a few days to get their lil dramatic fame and then be over with... and then what the hell? they don't go to the hospital or anything? and they keep trying right after they said they did it? no one is that stupid to type while bleeding so bad... and yeah... I did that once.. it actually wasn't a lie... and hey maybe that lil half % is true but I know this person well and they are always full of bulls*** and have said this so many times... it's just stupid and annoying... and not believable at all and yeah

14 Jul, 2009

My favorite saying/quotes...

" I carved your name into this bullet so that everyone would know you were the last thing going through my head." "It's easy to believe someone when they are telling you something you want to hear." "You don’t realize how much you care about someone until they don’t care about you." "Every night I think about what I didn't do right and why you left me for her." "Always listen to your heart, because even though it's on the left..it's always right." " I'd live in pain just to see you happy." "I hate the way I could never hate you and the fact that I'll always love you no matter what you put me through. " "A break-up is like a broken mirror; it's better to just leave it, then to try and fix it." "Every second I'm without you, I'm a mess." "For once instead of telling me the reason why I shouldn't cry, actually pay attention to the reasons why I am." "Once you love someone, that person is forever part of you." " No regrets. Just lessons learned." "I wanted to push you into oncoming traffic but then I realized that I'd kill myself trying to save you."

13 Jul, 2009

Not cool....

You know what I think isn't cool about so many people in the world!?!??! Like I do it too sometimes... but... I try not to.. bad habit... ANYWAY! again this is from looking at a friend's blog... and relating it to real life off the internet... and the reason I looked at their page was... cuz my other friend... I guess got torn to pieces by this person.. idk who left who... not trying to be mean.. but damn! that person bounced back fast!!!!!!!!! like seriously!!!! that's not cool!!! (no offense) Cuz... they were dating... about a week? maybe... and like.. just last night... it ended... and then... today.... the person is back with another person!!!!! and it's not the same person!!!!! it's a diff one! and like... anyway back to relation to real world... Why is it... that no matter how long you dated someone... no matter how many memories you made together... and everything... or how much you loved them... a lot of the time... atleast one of the people in that relationship.... will be taken by some other person in the blink of an eye after the break up happened... and... then you sit there like.... "didn't they care at all? I'm heart broken and feel like **** when they're back at it with some other chick or dude? Maybe that's just a coincidence? Maybe it's because their so pretty or handsome... or whatever you wanna say as their attractive level... Maybe... it was just a waste of time... and was never meant to be... Maybe... this happened for a reason... idk what the reason is yet... but it must be a good one... or this wouldn't have happened" Idk what you'd say if this happened to you... but that's some of the things I'd say... and I'd curse at them... go insane... go on a killing spree or something... BUT ANYWAY!

13 Jul, 2009

Not cool....

yeah... it's not cool... I know I jumped around in this a lot... but I just typed what I thought and yeah... all I'm pretty much trying to say it... like... seriously... if you don't love them or like them... don't say yes and then break their heart in the end... cuz how would you like if someone you cared so much about did that to you... and... if you do like them or love them.. go for it! say yes! live life to the fullest! just make sure they feel the same way back... and... if you're not sure.. if you like/love them or not... well... don't say yes... OR try.... if you're willing to atleast try to make it work... then.. maybe things will work out great! or... not... but yeah just try to make it work.. you never know... I know people that used to hate eachother and turned out to be married for 20 years and had 3 kids! (aunt and uncle...) and like so yeah... just.. don't lead the other person on too much... tell them from the beingnning that you're not sure... I'm sure they'd understand... just let em know thou.. so you wont hurt them much or at all if things don't work out...

05 Jul, 2009

WOW...

Wow it's amazing on how many people come and go in your life... I mean like... I get bored a lot on here (no surprise) and I'll look at all these supposedly "popular" people that go in the new chat and crap... and I'll look at some of them and be like... HEY I KNOW THEM! They used to be like one of my bestest friends on here! and then... I like take a minute and think about now... and now... They're freaking j***s who don't give a damn and gang up on me for some stupid reason or when I try saying hi they say nothing and ignore me or just say hi to be nice then not talk to me again... and it's... stupid... And... like... I try saying hi once ina while to show I miss them and I still want them to be my friend but... they just get all what the hell do you want! and like... say I'm the one who ditched them.. when I havn't gone anywhere... and they did...

05 Jul, 2009

WOW....

and I read other people's blogs and crap saying how this person is always there for them never leaves them in the hard times always makes them happy when sad and I think about the old times when they did that for me and I did the same for them... and idk where I'm getting with this... I hope at least some people understand but... yeah... I think it's just like.... WOW... ya know? And sure! I have like... what 16 friend's that still talk to me and everything and it's awesome... because those were the ones from when I started... before I even made a profile on this... cuz for a good... like... almost a year... cuz I started going in old chat on meebo since December 23rd 2007 and... like I joined this thing September 3rd 2008... and... most of the people I made this blog to... the "popular" ones... well at least they think... I met them... kinda sorta either right before I made the profile... or right after.... and... the people I met way way way before I made the profile... are still like my bestest friends on here... except for 2 or 3.... that like... knew me forever but ditched me to be with the popular emo people on here... or so they say they are... and like yeah... idk...

01 Jul, 2009

...

Don't you hate it when something happens... to someone you love... or something like that and like... you don't know what to do to make it better... so you feel totally helpless and it hurts to see them like that.. and you just wish you can take the pain away or the problem but... you have no idea how...and all you can do is sit there and watch them suffer thinking "God I hate this, I wish I knew what to do to take all their problems away..." and you can't... and you just hope for the best not knowing if they're gonna get better or not....

29 Jun, 2009

weird

you know I think it's weird and funny in a non humor way (if that makes sense) that like most teens... they like... get a new gf or bf and they say they are the most amazing bf or gf or they're the best or something... and most not all but most that I know and see they say the same for each gf or bf they have... they call them each amazing... the most awesomest.... the best.... and blah blah blah... and it's like... maybe they're just saying that... idk if this makes sense but I noticed it and I'm pretty damn sure everyone does this atleast a few times... but like... yeah... idk (random thought of the moment)

18 Jun, 2009

Amazing...

I was just reading one of my friend's comments on their profile... and it's amazing... cuz... I'm sure a lot of people have gone through it too.... and what I'm trying to say is... like... People on here who you thought were your friends... are sometimes really not... like they'll gang up on you for something... make you feel bad... or they'll ignore you and never talk to you but like.. when they read a blog or hear you're thinking about leaving forever... that's when they come running back to you.. saying sorry and saying they didn't mean it or anything.. it's like the only time they care but if you just left without saying something... they'll just keep living life until weeks or months after they'll finally realize your gone and not coming back... but then it's too late and then they either do somethin supper rash or just go f*** them I don't need them anyway and forget you... and I just think it's amazing how people do this... and yeah.. idk