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| Username : | TheDarkDemon |
| First Name : | Cara |
| Gender: | F |
| Country: | US |
| Member Since : | 29 Jul, 2009 |
07 Sep, 2011
>_>
Fu.ck... I've been sick since FRIDAY. Wtf.... i'm only getting worse.... .-.
05 Sep, 2011
-.-
hm....guess no more of this site????? bye......
11 Aug, 2011
6663 profile views XD
Lol.... 666.... XD
10 Aug, 2011
Hmm...
I need to hang out with Dana..... shes been gone for so long.....
10 Aug, 2011
HELL YEAH!
DANA IS BACK!!! :)
18 Jul, 2011
o____O
My cat had a bag stuck around her and it had a can of dr.pepper in it and she ran around like crazy trying to get the bag off of her and then the soda exploded..... she's a crocaine addict XD I was gonna babysit today... that got cancelled >___> i need to make money for Sierra. :"""( it's her birthday present,...
16 Jul, 2011
OH YEAH!
New hair bit.ches<33333 I'll take pictures later and post them on my playlist. :]]] Blood red, Purple and in two weeks hot pink tips<3 Hahaha(: >____> hot pink is against my will. :p Sierra wants me to get it. might add light blue streaks with the purple. <3
16 Jul, 2011
(:
tomorrow is gonna be an amazing day<333 1/17/11. Anniversary... yay.(: Partying with me bestfriend Sierra today. :D she's coming over at 6. Mums birthday today<3333 38 years old XD lol. THATS ANCIENT. jkjk. [[[:
07 Jul, 2011
Hmm.
Hanging with friends today till i leave for the airport... bye people.
06 Jul, 2011
yay...
i leave tomorrow..... cant wait.......
05 Jul, 2011
double rainbow bi*tches(:
I saw one yesterday... it was awesome.(: i was with my mom, my sister, my niece, and shelby. we were dropping my sister and niece off at their house... and there was a DOUBLE RAINBOW[: first time i've ever seen one.
05 Jul, 2011
huh.
finally talking to my best friend thats a guy. i've known him literally my whole life. hmm.. :P bored. i get my new phone today... long story.. [not really] XD
04 Jul, 2011
NEW PHONE(:
new phone on thursday. Right before I go to arizona. OH! I just went and saw Transformers 3 in 3D<3 pretty fu*cking epic!
02 Jul, 2011
Friends, Friends, Friends(:
I'm gonna be hanging out with friends a lot before i leave for Arizona
02 Jul, 2011
O___O
FUN PARTY!!![: got to see my awesome amazing friends. Saw some fake emo's.... they were just preps with emo hair... almost killed them... fakes bug me so badly..
01 Jul, 2011
Shizzzzzz.
I slept for like 3 hours. O___O haha. i need to get ready for that party :D
01 Jul, 2011
OOO:
My cat stops biting me if i snap in her face. :D I'M IN CONTROL NOW!
01 Jul, 2011
Scubs<3
"calm down and enjoy some chocolate love" -Turk gets close to kissing JD JD: abort! Abort! Stop it! I don't have g**jungle fever!
01 Jul, 2011
XD
"double rainbow... OMG A BUTTERFLY!" "CARA! pay attention to the game!" I swear I have no attention span XD
01 Jul, 2011
HospitalXD
Sierra: everytime i see you i get a song stuck in my head... me: um... is it emo kid!? sierra: no... welcome to the family by avenged sevenfold. me: why? sierra: i have no clue..
01 Jul, 2011
S*it.
Summer is going by to fast >____>
01 Jul, 2011
O_O
Am I ready to party? HELL YEAH!(: can't wait
01 Jul, 2011
Wow..
I dont think him and I are becoming distant.. I think it's mostly me. I keep pushing people away from me when I need them the most and I don't trust anyone
01 Jul, 2011
Birthday party!!!
Neon bowling with my friends[: yay! HAPPY ALMOST BIRTHDAY SIERRA! lol xD
01 Jul, 2011
Welcome Lily Rayne Vogel[:
I'm an aunt and Lily is my little niece. Born: 12:23am 6/30/11 (: so happy.
28 Jun, 2011
OO:
I go on vacation soon O____O Going to Arizona and Nevada <33 Surprising my uncle for his 40th birthday, we're randomly showing up at his house in AZ. Then road trip to Nevada to see Criss Angel perform live<333
28 Jun, 2011
:]]
Any moment, and I'm going to be an aunt. Can't wait <333
28 Jun, 2011
Huh.
More people need to go on Meebo Chat >____< lol [:
28 Jun, 2011
:]
Happy, happy day :]
27 Jun, 2011
if only..
When she walks away from you mad [ Follow her ] When she stare's at your mouth [ Kiss her ] When she pushes you away [ Grab her and dont let go ] When she start's shouting at you [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ] When she's quiet [ Ask her whats wrong ] When she ignore's you [ Give her your attention ] When she pull's away [ Pull her back ] When you see her at her worst [ Tell her she's beautiful ] When you see her start crying [Just hold her and dont say a word ] When you see her walking [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ] When she's scared [ Protect her ] When she lay's her head on your shoulder [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ] When she steal's your favorite hat [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night] When she tease's you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ] When she doesnt answer for a long time [ reassure her that everything is okay ] When she look's at you with doubt [ Back yourself up always tell the truth no matter what] When she say's that she like's you [ she really does more than you could understand ] When she grab's at your hands [ Hold her's and play with her fingers ] When she bump's into you [ bump into her back and make her laugh ] When she tell's you a secret [ keep it safe and untold ] When she looks at you in your eyes [ dont look away until she does ] When she misses you [ she's hurting inside ] When you break her heart [ the pain never really goes away ] When she says its over [ she still wants you to be hers ] When she repost this bulletin [ she wants you to read it ] -When You Say The Same Thing At The Same Time, Then They Say "I Love You " ♥ - Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything. - When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go - When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her - because 10 yrs later she'll remember you - Call her at 12:00am on her birthday
27 Jun, 2011
.-.
bad feeling... about a certain person.... don't know why.... i've been crying for an hour now.... guess all these things are really starting to get to me....
27 Jun, 2011
>_____>
The word trust really p***es me off... >____> i'm never going to feel trust.... like... actual trust.... i can't trust anyone... it p***es me off...
27 Jun, 2011
Sometimes.. i wish things would be different
I honestly thought that i wouldn't mind my parents divorce, but now that I actually am thinking about it... it's killing me. My family has been difunctional and broken for a long time... heck.. i don't remember ONE time we ALL got along together. I remember my parents fighting CONSTANTLY, my sister comforting me, my brother screaming and crying, ect... I just wish things were different. I wish we could all get along... but no.. now my family is torn apart. Parents still fight constantly even though there divorced, my brother is become an a**hole, my sister is okay... it's just... i don't know...
25 Jun, 2011
....
life....could be better..... can't wait for sierra to come over.... get this pain off my mind....
25 Jun, 2011
-_-
Can't seem to sleep.. All I have is him on my mind<3 going to Arizona and Nevada in 12 days.... Going to Nevada to see Criss Angel perform live.
25 Jun, 2011
Huh.
Chevys over spending the night. Hanging with him and my brother. Tomorrow I'm going to see Bad Teacher with Sierra and shes spending the night :) :) awesome weekend dudes =)
15 Jun, 2011
Haha... I have problems .-.
I don't know why it's so hard to trust people. No matter how much I try I can't fully trust someone... I know deep down I have some trust in only a couple of people... but I hardly show it. I'm always afraid to be judged, stabbed in the back, lied to, cheated on.. etc. I think for now this is as much trust as I will have for a while. Honestly, my boyfriend and Sierra are the only ones that earned that little trust. Congrats to them.. I don't know... I've changed so much. I never had trust issues like this, but I've been through a lot of stupid sh.it and dealt with a lot of a**holes. I'm staying strong, and I'm trying not to do anything to drastic. I stopped injuring myself, started living life with my friends, running around breaking the law, climbing things I normally wouldn't climb, skateboarded down some pretty steep hills, gotten stabbed in the back multiple times and forgave those people without hesitation. Anywho, point is I've changed... people do that... lol. Byeeee.
15 Jun, 2011
Hmmm.
Sick... Sick... Sick. >.< I HATE being this sick....
05 Jun, 2011
=/
Why am I so sensitive right now? >.< I keep crying over EVERYTHING. Oh, btw. Robert Pattenson (Edward) kissed Taylor Lautner (Jacob) on MTV movie awards xD
03 Jun, 2011
Likes;
Music, sports, strawberries, Texting, my bestfriend, my boyfriend, horror movies, scrubs, two and a half men, the regular show, iPods, cellphones, reading, writing (will continue)
02 Jun, 2011
Why?
I know he's waking me up at 4 am, so why stay up till 2 am? I'm stupid XD
01 Jun, 2011
O.o
He wasn't bluffing. He woke me up at 4 am but I passed out around 6 :/
01 Jun, 2011
Wow xD
So it was 11 PM and Sierra woke me up (well, I was HALF asleep) and she HAD TO tell me that FACEBOOK kicked her off. It was THAT much of an emergency. Still on the phone with her at MIDNIGHT wondering if my boyfriend was bluffing
01 Jun, 2011
Oh jeez..
I hope he's bluffing. It's 11 pm. Which means if he calls at 4 AM i'll be tired as hell XD XD I'll still not be bugged by it :) Hehe(: guess I'll find out. Night everyone. ONE LAST THING: scrubs is amazing(: I'm falling asleep to it[: not as amazing as my boyfriends singing though(: hehe
29 May, 2011
<3
Cant wait for him to call(: Im watching scrubs(:
28 May, 2011
:/
Ever been completely filled with energy, had a sugar crash and slept for hours, (unless your me and don't get much sleep) and then felt totally drained of energy when you wake up? It's like being hungover, minus the headache. -.-
28 May, 2011
O.o
Last night; Sierra and I walked to the store. Bought FOUR energy drinks. Two for me, two for her. We drank them in an hour. Walked home, watched Scrubs, and ate a little. Found riddles. Listened to music. Talked about stuff. And then finally fell asleep at 3 am. I woke up at 7 from a bad dream, walked around for a second, passed out, woke up at 8, then woke Sierra up at 9
27 May, 2011
PARTY[:
Sierra+me+sugar=bad combination. Look out world, ' cause you're going DOWN[:
27 May, 2011
:]
I have the best boyfriend ever<3333 you know who you are(: [[1/17/11]] I miss you :/ can't wait to call you again.(: Sierra (aka my bestfriend in the whole wide world) is spending the night[: My boyfriend&Sierra are the most amazing people I know. I don't know what I'd do without them. Even on my most depressed days they make me smile when I can't even make myself smile. They care about me and they'd do nothing to hurt me on purpose. I actually TRUST them. Haha. Fucking miracle, right? It takes a lot for me to trust people(: I'm just glad I met them. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!![:
25 May, 2011
Nervous :/
Promotionis at 10.
24 May, 2011
.....
Blah
24 May, 2011
....
Stupid promise I have to keep......-_- I wouldn't be here now if it weren't for that promise
23 May, 2011
Yeah... Why? Felt like it...
Who am I? Well, for all who don't know me then maybe you should read this. I'm Cara, I have the worst trust issues you could ever imagine. I love listening to peoples problems and trying to help them. It kind of distracts me from my reality. I may seem abstract and a bit confusing but at least I don't pretend to be perfect. Perfection is impossible... I'm a writer at best. Stephen Kings' work fascinates me. I tend to be a bit of a language arts nerd but I try to control myself. I draw; sometimes. Poetry; depression. I tend to relate those two words into one fine work of art. Some of my poems are happy... Long walks in the woods, and going to the park relieves my stress. I'm constantly zoned out. I believe I think to much. I get distracted and off track easily. I don't let my walls down, even for people who are close to me. I'm always here to listen if you need someone to talk to. I'm great at keeping secrets. I care about everyone. It takes a lot for me to actually hate someone. I rarely smile. I'm broken hearted. Depressed. Etc. I love music; metal, rock, emo, alternative... Anything but hip hop and rap. I live in Alaska. Yeah I know weird. Ask me stupid questions about Alaska then I'll give you a smart a** response back(: Um. Well, want to be friends? Just message me I guess.
23 May, 2011
-sighs-
Life is only going to get worse...
23 May, 2011
May 25th
Is the day I get out of school.... Don't think I'll make it tomorrow.... I feel so sick and depressed...... Plus it's a fun day so it shouldn't even matter....
22 May, 2011
,..
I don't even know what the f*** to do anymore!!!!
22 May, 2011
:/
I can't handle the pain... So I shall sleep the night away..
22 May, 2011
...
I really want to die.... I hate my life so much... I can't stop crying
21 May, 2011
One of my favorite parts in the happening
*touches the plant* plastic... I'm talking to a plastic plant.. I'm still talking to it XD
21 May, 2011
6 weeks bitches(:
Alexi is having her baby in about 6 weeks!!!!!:D I'm gonna be an aunty soon
21 May, 2011
Trust
Trust is such a hard concept for me to grasp. I don't know why I can't trust someone that I love, or people I know that won't hurt me. I hardly let my walls down for anyone.. I'm constantly on guard, questioning myself, wondering if I'll ever trust someone like I use to. I tend to keep everything bottled up inside, stay quiet and try to convince people that I'll be alright. I know it's not healthy, but I seem to be better off on my own anyway. What is trust? Well, trust could have multiple meanings to certain individuals. To me trust is being able to open up to a person, being able to tell them anything, or to trust them not to hurt you. Trust is such a great thing to have in a relationship, and I'm trying to build trust in mine. I just don't know if it will ever happen.
21 May, 2011
Oh yeah..
I got my hair cut yesterday.. Emo looking.
21 May, 2011
Snapple Cap Fact #744
Polar bears can smell a seal from 20 miles away
21 May, 2011
Yay.
Mom is sick of the way my dad is treating me so I'm staying with her full time. Thank god.
20 May, 2011
:/
He doesn't deserve me... At all... There's so much other better girls out there for him....
19 May, 2011
:(
I wish my dad actually gave a damn about me.... He's NEVER been to my choir concerts, none of my sports games, and now graduation.... Love you too dad.... Fucking inconsiderate a**hole... I f***ing hate you....
19 May, 2011
F**K YOU DAD!!!
He's flying to Arizona to visit relatives!!!! He's skipping my GRADUATION!!! glad you Fu.cking care you inconsiderate a**hole!!!!!!!!
18 May, 2011
<3
Waiting for him to message me(: (: (: For some odd reason I can't eat without puking up blood:/ same with wifie
18 May, 2011
A miracle!
I'm actually going to bed at 10!!! :OO Haha. Almost out of school bi.tches!!!!(:
17 May, 2011
Cute?
I stayed up till midnight just to wish him happy anniversary(: and send him a long message that was all sweet and stuff. :D time to finally get 4 hours of sleep XD.
17 May, 2011
1/17/11
Best day ever. Tomorrows our anniversary(: 4/17/11. Yay!!(: can't wait
17 May, 2011
Hmm.
I have some pretty weird thoughts XD
17 May, 2011
??
Why do I always have that strange sense that I'm just going to get hurt again? That someones been lieing straight to my face? Or that I'll be stabbed in the back? Or have a friend turn on me? Eh.. Guess because it's happened before. I'm pretty sure why I keep feeling like puking is because of stress
17 May, 2011
XD!!!
Dr. Cox; if you let out all of that anger what would that look like? Huh?? JD; *head b***s dr. Cox* how do you like me now bi.tch? XD
17 May, 2011
Coffee!!!!![:
I love coffee(: I'm so hyper!!!!!!:D I can't sleep
16 May, 2011
Holy Fu.ck
It's 56 degrees out. I'm dieing in this heat -.-
16 May, 2011
Jeez
Locked out... AGAIN. hot as hell out
16 May, 2011
*sighs*
Have you ever regretted telling someone something and knowing that they found a loophole and are now going to do whatever? Yeah.... Feel like puking.... I feel stupid
16 May, 2011
Yep.
It hurts when you put on that perfect fake smile, that perfect laugh, and hide the pain so well that no one notices just how dead you are inside...
15 May, 2011
...
Guys are such a**holes...
15 May, 2011
Ugh........
I'm so tired! Wifie and I drank energy drinks, ran around screaming and yelling till 2 am.... We went to bed at almost 4 am... Then woke up at 7 and 8 (she woke up before me)
14 May, 2011
Well well well...
Lol. Umm glad I didn see Priest on Thursday at fu.cking midnight (well, technically Friday but yeah) Priest..... Sucks!!!
13 May, 2011
Complicated
Mom didn't want me to go to dads. I hid at shelbys for hours. I'm now at my dads for a week. Going to see Preist with Sierra
13 May, 2011
I be....
I be bored out of my mind. I'm with wifie
13 May, 2011
D:
I miss him so much...........
12 May, 2011
Busy day!!!!
6 pm appointment 7 pm choir concert MIDNIGHT WERE SEEING PRIEST!!!!! FRIDAY THE 13TH IS DEFIANTLY MU LUCKY DAY!! NO SCHOOL AND MOVIES!!
12 May, 2011
Rawrness
I am sick... Another appointment tonight.
12 May, 2011
*yawn*
Another night without sleep... Yay. I've been getting 3 to 4 hours of sleep everyday this week and I was actually trying to get a lot of sleep yesterday (like 9 hours) but I only got 3 or 4
12 May, 2011
Two hours of sleep
I don't think I'm going back to sleep. Surprised my little brother hasn't woken up yet....
12 May, 2011
Four hours...
Till I have to wake up.... I'm just waiting for the yelling to stop..... So I can finally close my eyes and fall asleep.... I hate fighting...... So much....... :'(
12 May, 2011
Horrible memories.... :[
Travis and mom got into a fight a couple of minutes ago.... I woke up to it.... The fight was like how my parents use to fight (they still kind of fight this way actually) and it just bring back horrible memories..... Of wakin up in the night..... Hearing them screaming...... Hitting each other..... My brother, sister and I crying in the same room..... Not sleeping then having to go to school......
11 May, 2011
SAW marathon(:
Yay(: almost done with the first one(:
11 May, 2011
XD
Charlie; rose you don't have to pretend to be my gf anymore. Rose; oh my god. Are you pretending to break up with me? *fake cries* XD love two and a half men
11 May, 2011
Controlled >_<
I'm so sick of him controlling me!!!! If I don't want to go see a doctor he threatens to stop talking to me, if I don't want to go to sleep he ignores me till I pass out, if I don't hug him he gets all p***ed off!!!! Fu.ck you, Keenan.
11 May, 2011
Random lyrics
It was your heart on the line, I really fu.cked things up this time, didn't I my dear? -little lion man by Mumford and sons.
11 May, 2011
30mins
Till I leave... Then I'll be back in an hour?? Lol idk..
11 May, 2011
Haircut<3
Next week[: oh... And I'm going to the doctors
11 May, 2011
Ewwww :[
My stomach hurts so badly. I just started coughing up a little blood and then I ran to the bathroom and started puking up blood :[ It hurts to breathe =( I hate stomach pains..
11 May, 2011
Blah
I hate going to school
11 May, 2011
Yesterday xD in Industrail Tech xD
Sierra and I were holding our breath (we got bored) and I couldn't hold my breath because I kept bursting out into laughter xD. I was like "if I had no emotions I could hold my breath longer instead of laughing every five seconds" XD
10 May, 2011
WTF XD
My cat is cuddling next to me and watching SAW 6!!! 'tis cute! Hahaha.. 'tis xD
10 May, 2011
SAW 6<3
Such a lovely movie to watch while eating dinner xD
10 May, 2011
Dale and I xD haha.
Me; hey there. Dale; I like your hair. Me; who does your hair? Dale and I; I wanna go there! Pshyeah! XD
10 May, 2011
O_O Texting Keenan while hanging with Sierra
Me; hey K; hi Me; what's up? K; my pants. *thinks about it for awhile, while Sierra is talking and starts screaming* Sierra; WHAT!? me; ahhhhhhh!!! Ahhhh!! *show Sierra the texts* Sierra; *bursts out laughing* O_O o.o awwwwkward.
10 May, 2011
:/
Why can't I trust one single person? Why do I feel like he's cheating? Why do I feel like they tell my secrets? Why can't I share my feelings? Why do I feel like everyone thinks I'm a freak? Why do I keep my feelings bottled up? ...
10 May, 2011
Choir...
People of the world, join hands. Start a love train, a love train. XD I have to sing it in choir and it's stuck in my head xD
10 May, 2011
Hmm.
Hoping he gets on soon... I miss him tons....
10 May, 2011
Woo
I've lost 15 pounds in two and a half weeks xP
09 May, 2011
WTF XD
Sierra: cara open your mouth!!! Me: *opens my mouth* Sierra: CARA!!! don't deepthroat the air!!!! Me: uhhhh
09 May, 2011
Party??? Without me knowing?? :O
I think my mom is throwing a party o.o people keep showing up randomly. 'Tis weird. Haha... 'Tis... XD
09 May, 2011
HOUSE!!!!<3333
Scrubs, Two and a Half Men and House Fu.cking rock!!![: New episode of House<3333 loving it
09 May, 2011
Five hours
Till I have to wake up for school xP
09 May, 2011
Words..
Self absorbed, selfish, coldhearted, heartless, stupid. Haha. Funny thing is... She called me those words and doesn't even know who the f.u.ck I am.
09 May, 2011
Something Borrowed[:
Great movie. (:
09 May, 2011
My song<333 pieces by sum 41
I tried to be perfect But nothing was worth it I don’t believe it makes me real I thought it’d be easy But no one believes me I meant all the things I said If you believe it’s in my soul I’d say all the words that I know Just to see if it would show That I’m trying to let you know That I’m better off on my own This place is so empty My thoughts are so tempting I don’t know how it got so bad Sometimes it’s so crazy That nothing can save me But it’s the only thing that I have If you believe it’s in my soul I’d say all the words that I know Just to see if it would show That I’m trying to let you know That I’m better off on my own On my own I tried to be perfect It just wasn’t worth it Nothing could ever be so wrong It’s hard to believe me It never gets easy I guess I knew that all along If you believe it’s in my soul I’d say all the words that I know Just to see if it would show That I’m trying to let you know That I’m better off on my own
08 May, 2011
SCRUBS!!!<333333
Best fu.cking show ever[: <3333 I like it better than Criss Angels' show or Ghost Adventures. That's a lot of love ;] lol(:<3333
08 May, 2011
Profile views xD
6066 Oh... That's funny...
05 May, 2011
(:
Yay. Sierra's parents don't care about the note[: They were like "it's just a phase." Gosh... I got lucky...
04 May, 2011
Fu.ck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sierra.... Threw a note away that's between her and I........ The note was from about a month ago... When I wanted to be a loner.. Her parents found the note and might tell my parents... Which means I'll probably get sent to North Star or Dorothy Saxton Youth Shelter.... Sorry everyone....
04 May, 2011
Addiction<3
I'm addicted to Scrubs<3 Turk and JD remind me of Shelby and I xD
03 May, 2011
:]
I hope he gets on today<3 I miss him so much
27 Apr, 2011
We must depart.
Till you come back, I'll have a broken heart, Sorry, but we must depart. Broken paths, countless mistakes, Wishing time would take me away.
27 Apr, 2011
....
I fu.cking hate my family...
27 Apr, 2011
Hmm..
Bored. -_- my tummy hurts.
24 Apr, 2011
Trust.
I'm trying to build trust with people, but I'm to scared. I'm afraid of getting stabbed in the back again.... I don't think I'll ever trust someone again.... I've been through a lot.... I just don't trust people in general...
23 Apr, 2011
Medication
I have to take pills twice a day for a month, and put on two different lotions twice a day for a month. >.< allergies s***s
22 Apr, 2011
:[
I want him back... :[ no not Keenan... you know who you are... :[ I'm sorry for telling you that I kind of wante Keenan back... I don't know what I was thinking... it hurts being away from you.. :[[[[
22 Apr, 2011
Yay poetry....
The pain wont heal, even as time goes by. These cracks in my heart, make me want to die. If this is goodbye, then 'forever' is just a lie. Slowly, this broken heart starts to mend, Just to get shattered again. I put the pieces back together, and move on, But the memories of us isn't gone. Haunting me, as I go insane, Trying to deal with the pain. Devastation coursing through my veins, as I try to forget your name. A razor across my hand, I've gone mad. Suicide filling my mind, As I go blind. The blood pours out, as i let out my final shouts. Cover me in satin, and bury me in roses, Make sure no one cries, and move on, Try to live your life now that I'm gone.
21 Apr, 2011
Fu.ck
I don't even know what to do anymore, and don't try to help me because I'm past reassurance...
19 Apr, 2011
Nightmare :( blah.
It wasn't a nightmare at first... But it was an awesome dream.... And I can't remember the happy parts... But this is what happened in the nightmare; I was laying down on my bed, and my eyes were closed. This creepy little girl voice was like "I can see two ghosts" and I was like "you do?" and she was like "there going to hurt you.... There mean.... Just kill yourself....." so I made a plan to kill myself a week later...... Then I got into an elevator with my dad.... But it was all off balance and weird.... It made a weird noise..... And he was like "it's not off balance now" and he smiled and we fell to our death :'( I woke up screaming and crying after that, and I don't remember exactly what the little girl said but I was something close to that.......
17 Apr, 2011
:(
"One of these times you're actually going to lose me." I guess I really messed up this time. I thought getting rid of him would be easy... but it's just making life harder. I thought I wanted him gone, but now that he's on the edge of leaving I don't want him gone... this is r****ed...>.< I really do hate losing people... even if I don't like them... but he's changed...a lot... this s***s... -I'm talking about my stupid ex Keenan... Sorry if that hurt you....and you know who you are....
07 Apr, 2011
Sierra and I!!!
i was playing Stacy's mom in the background. She was acting weird... Me: WHAT THE FU.CK ARE YOU ON!? Sierra: your mom!! Me: WTF!! Sierra: I love it when she screams my name! me: o.o Sierra: CARA'S MOM HAS GOT IT GOING ON!!
06 Apr, 2011
Eh.
I'm bored. I'm working on a story... I have to many of them. I'm also blasting music and ignoring my family. Life has been tough, but I have my amazing friends by my side to help me through every single thing. Their amazing people and I'm glad i've met them. I have stupid testing at school until Friday...
04 Apr, 2011
Fuuudge
Testing tomorrow, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday... (reading, writing, math & science in that order) -_-
04 Apr, 2011
Tired...
I'm so tired. I went to bed around midnight, and then woke up at 4 am... Then I dozed off at five... And woke up at 6...
04 Apr, 2011
:/
I'm suppose to be getting up in 6 hours for school.... Guess I'm not getting any sleep tonight
04 Apr, 2011
Yep...
Well, I don't even know anymore... Obviously I don't mean a thing to anyone... I can't sleep... My tummy hurts... And I drank two amps at the movies.... I went and saw s***er punch....
23 Mar, 2011
:/
BLAAAAH! Life is way to damn confusing right now.. I can't think straight.. My tummy hurts from all the stress.. Gah.. What am I going to do? I keep messing everything up and I'm afraid that I'm going to end up hurting someone I really care about... -_- bleh. Well... Yeah... I'm gonna go now... Bye...
26 Feb, 2011
>_<
My name is Cara. I'm obviously one Fu.cked up person with a low self esteem. I have a boyfriend(: I love horror movies(: creepy things are just bad a**. I have no life(: I play video games sometimes. I played Call Of Duty (any of them), F.E.A.R (any of them) and Dead Space 1 and I want number 2 >_< I recently got a pocket knife with a serrated blade(: it's made from a company by S.W.A.T and it was only $30. My friends are my family(: I'm very insecure, I have trust issues, i'm sensitive, pessimistic, heartless (etc) though many people disagree >_< Yeah... Well.... I'm gonna go... Have a great life(:
21 Feb, 2011
Hello People O_O x]
A lot has happened; My sister moved out. My sister found out she's having a girl. Shelby and I got into a fight. My cousin and I got into a fight. I'm tutoring my other cousin whose a total bit.ch. Two people told me I'm brain washed by Keenan and I'm starting to believe them. I wrote two HAPPY poems for the first time in my life. Yesterday was my friends birthday. I got a lap top. Oh and I got my sisters room so now I have my own room for the first time in my life!!!! But it's the room with the crawl space >.< I went to the doctors, didn't have bronchitis but I had a virus. Played f.e.a.r and call of duty for hours (I have no life D: ) Watched Just Go With It. Threw a party. Uh... I don't know what else... OH!!! And burned my self FIVE times within one hour with a hot glue g** in industrial tech and I still don't have any burn marks >.< lol xD
09 Feb, 2011
Bronchitis
I was at Shelbys ALL weekend, and her brother was sick.. I got sick yesterday... Turns out her brother has Bronchitis D: and I have ALL the damn symptoms... I'm on my lap top, un able to get up because I feel like crap.
04 Feb, 2011
Blah..
For the past couple of days I've been waking up at 5 am.. From bad dreams.. I hate this.. I just want to sleep for once.
31 Jan, 2011
Won't be on much anymore.
I really have no reason to stay on here, and I'll still come on every once in a while just not as often. Only one person talks to me. Every once in a while some random person will say hi, but not often. :/ so.. Uh.. Yeah.. Bye.. Oh.. And the rite was a good movie... Farewell random strangers :/
30 Jan, 2011
The Hurt Locker
Watching it right now :/ pretty good so far
30 Jan, 2011
Wooooooooooo!
Okay so for a x-mas present I get to go out to eat and see WHATEVER movie I choose.. This is from my aunt and I'm going to go see THE RITE today(: wooo!
30 Jan, 2011
Holy crap o_o
Saw seven ended differently then I expected o_o it was awesome though!!! SAW 5 & 2 are still my favorite<3 && once I own the 7th one then I'll have all o them, no joke. I bought 1-5 when I was like 12 and then got the 6th one for x-mas. Now I want the seventh one D:
30 Jan, 2011
Saw seven!!!!
I'm watching it now!!!! My moms bf is AWESOME!!!
29 Jan, 2011
Stress!!! >_<
God. My wifies stupid f***ing bf is friends with this chick that keeps hitting on him so now I'm about to f***ing murder her!!!!!!!!
28 Jan, 2011
:D!!!
Yay it's Friday!!! I'm gonna go to school, and then hang out with my wifie!!!!! XD [the wifie thing is an inside joke] (: Yay Fridayyyyyy!!!!!!! :) haha.
28 Jan, 2011
Woo!
Tomorrows Friday! Which means Shelby is spending the night. WOO!
25 Jan, 2011
Goodnight
I'm going to sleep :/ Keenan and I just got into an argument and I don't feel like being stressed out anymore..
25 Jan, 2011
Tomorrow :(
Going to the doctors But since my so called friend is being a selfish bit.ch I have to do our science project that's 60% of our grade while she hangs out with friends after school.. Woo.. Sounds fun >.< And doctors scare me! I hate going to the doctors D:
24 Jan, 2011
FML!!!
I tried getting up to walk and I get lightheaded, almost blacked out and now my head hurts like hell!!!! I hate this sh.it!!!
24 Jan, 2011
Gahhh.
Wooo! For Shelbys birthday were going see Rango <3 I'm laying down, watching tv, Texting people, trying not to cry.. Stomach hurts.. :/ I watched saw 6 earlier :3
24 Jan, 2011
Skipping. School.
Stomach hurts so badly I can't walk... I'm gonna sleep.... Ugh....
24 Jan, 2011
:/ damnit
When I was coming back from Wasilla my stomach hurt so badly that I was crying and it got hard to breathe.. It still keeps doing that.. Ugh.. I fu.cking hate this!!!
23 Jan, 2011
:O
Shelby: moms giving away the baby bunnies for two kittens! Me: but I like the baby bunnies!! :( Shelby: when mom takes them away you have to come over and we have to make the goodbye all dramatic. Me: I could see us on the ground in front of the cage crying and being like "remember that time when we tried to bring them back to there cage but they kept jumping out of our arms and we put them in a box?" Shelby: and I'll be like " don't leave us!!! You made us so happy!" Haha I love my wifie x] her and I are such weirdos. But I really do love the two baby bunnies D:
22 Jan, 2011
Substitute in math x]
He was going around learning our names. Shelby, Sierra, Halley and I were all sitting by each other. Substitute: -he looks at Sierra.- your name is? Sierra: Sierra. Sub: okay. -looks at Halley.- and your name is? Halley: Halley.. Sub: okay. Halley: but don't call me Holly because thats what it looks like it pronounced but it's Pronounced hey- Lea. Sub: I was doing just fine until you confused me. Shelby: stop confusing people! The sub already knew mine and shelbys name. Sub: I'm gonna go now. This table is having to much fun and it makes me want to stay. He walked away. Shelby: let's talk in third person to confuse him! Me: haha okay! Cara is going to kill Sierra. Sierra: Sierra is frightened. Haha...
21 Jan, 2011
Whispers in the dark by skillet <3
Despite the lies that you're making Your love is mine for the taking My love is just waiting To turn your tears to roses Despite the lies that you're making Your love is mine for the taking My love is just waiting To turn your tears to roses I will be the one that's gonna hold you I will be the one that you run to My love is a burning, consuming fire No, you'll never be alone When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars Hear my whispers in the dark No, you'll never be alone When darkness comes you know I'm never far Hear the whispers in the dark Whispers in the dark You feel so lonely and ragged You lay there broken and naked My love is just waiting To clothe you in crimson roses I will be the one that's gonna find you I will be the one that's gonna guide you My love is a burning, consuming fire No, you'll never be alone When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars Hear my whispers in the dark No, you'll never be alone When darkness comes you know I'm never far Hear the whispers in the dark No, you'll never be alone When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars Hear the whispers in the dark No, you'll never be alone When darkness comes you know I'm never far Hear the whispers in the dark Whispers in the dark Whispers in the dark Whispers in the dark
20 Jan, 2011
You deserve to know me part 2
I have dark brown hair, I was born with black and purple hair but when I moved to AZ my hair got a little lighter. I don't tan I freckle >.< I get it from my mom. I'm very pale, I hate it. My sister, brother and dad are naturally tan. My mom and I are pale no matter what. I have a sleeping disorder called Night Terrors I also get that from my mom, I also get my language arts skills from my mom. Oh yeah.. I was born and raised in Palmer, Alaska but lived in AZ for three years. My eyes are hard to explain... They have a brown background but they'll have gold, green or grey in them, but my eyes are always different. Criss angel is my idol and I want to be just like him. MINDFREAK! haha. I have tummy problems that I'm going to the doctor for and when I find out what's wrong with me I'll tell you. Well... I like watching Spongebob (: don't judgeee! I love watching horror movies<3 I listen to heavy metal, screamo, rock, punk, emo, alternative and some pop songs. I love my friends more than family and there's a reason behind that. Without my friends i would've killed myself.
20 Jan, 2011
:/ you guys deserve to know me.
I'm Cara Marie. I shall not say my last name because I hate it >.< I'm 14, my birthday is October 5th and i love writing stories. I'm a language arts nerd. I am emo, I don't cut but that's not what emo means(: I'm also punk and I skateboard, write poems/songs and play my moms acoustic guitar. I'm 5'6" and I weigh 130 pounds, I know I'm fat xD I'm caring, sensitive, shy, insecure, trustworthy and emotional. I'm in love with someone (: and he knows who he is (; so don't hit on me or ask me out >.< I won't tell you much of my life unless you've earned my trust. I live in a small town called Palmer.. It's in Alaska.. Yes Alaska. No we don't live in igloos or ride polar bears to school x] I have a bestfreind, her name is Shelby(: umm, Sierra is also my other bestfriend and I have other friends. I'm the middle child. My older sister is 19, her birthday is October 15th and my younger brother is 12 and his birthday is July 29th. My sister is pregnant and her baby is due at the end of June(: her boyfriend is awesome!
19 Jan, 2011
School... O_O
God my friends are fu.cked up! Cebrina; Maggie or I would be willing to video tape getting your organ removed. Me; what the hell is wrong with you two? Cebrina; I'd laugh if they'd messed up! At least we'd have it on video so people can learn from there mistakes! Me; god... Cebrina: haha it's like they leave a sponge in there! I'd be able to say you ate Spongebob. Me; that's messed up! Shelby; I would kill you without hesitating Cara! I hate Spongebob. Me; oh I love you too wifie!
19 Jan, 2011
Friends talking about my tummy problems...
Jake: I was going to say what it could be but that wouldn't make you feel much better, it could just be a stomach ache, hopefully, good luck! Me: o.o hopefully Cebrina: hey just think you might be able to get an organ removed =) and if they do make sure to get it on video! XD Me: I don't think I know anyone willing to video tape that x] and Jake now I want to know what you were going to say >.<
19 Jan, 2011
Perfect by Hedley
Falling a thousand feet per second, You still take me by surprise. I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes. And as long as I can feel you holding on, I won't fall, even if you say I was wrong. I'm not perfect, but I keep trying. Cause that's what I said I would do from the start. I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Is it something I said or just my personality? (probably not correct, I typed this by memory) haha.
19 Jan, 2011
:o
I love the show Pranked! It's hilarious (:
19 Jan, 2011
Awwww
My cat is asleep, and she's cuddling against my back. :)
19 Jan, 2011
Sierra and I x]
Me: Ahh I'm bored Sierra: I gotta sleep now I'm only human unlike some people *cough cough* night. Me: ... I do sleep.. Just not that much x]
18 Jan, 2011
Dun dun dun.
Don't mind the t**le I got bored. Hehe. Anywho, I'm working on a story.. It's pretty creepy. I'm trying to help my best friend through issues. I'm petting my adorable cat Boots. I'm talking to the AWESOMEST person ever on here(: I'm watching tv. I'm Texting 20 people o_o I'm trying not to be bored x] Haha wooooooo what a life x] :)
18 Jan, 2011
:/
Talking your friend into dumping her abusive boy friend is a pain in the a** >_< I Fu.cking hate how she's treated by him and how she's brain washed!!!! Ugh! And she's depressed because of him!
18 Jan, 2011
Haha.
I have no school today(: woo! (that's a long story that I don't feel like explaining) but only the middle school and high school get today off, the elementary has to go.. Haha! x] (:
17 Jan, 2011
Party!(:
Sierras coming over. Woo!(:
17 Jan, 2011
Wooo(:
Alexi & Aaron are back together. Aaron is the father of her baby, and out of all of my sisters bf's he's my favorite(:
17 Jan, 2011
Just dance 2
My sister and I are playing it. Haha.
17 Jan, 2011
Blah.
I went to bed at midnight.. Woke up at 4 am...
17 Jan, 2011
:'(
My boyfriend was cheating on me......... :'(
13 Jan, 2011
I can't stop crying :(
Two of my closes friends are going to kill themselves
12 Jan, 2011
:/
'I'm not perfect, but I keep trying, 'cause that's what I said I would do from the start. I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Is it something I said or just my personality?' - perfect by Hedley.
12 Jan, 2011
:/
I'm probably the worst person ever. :/
08 Jan, 2011
The other guys[:
Will ferrel; he has a g** to me -no one notices- Will; seriously? I'm getting kidnapped and were in a police station and no one cares!? Haha best movie ever!!!!<3
08 Jan, 2011
Magic
Finalygot my magic kit<3
07 Jan, 2011
My crazy weekend[:
Today; spending the night at sierras(: Saturday & Sunday; babysitting, seven dollars an hour &babysitting for eight hours, 56 dollars!! Woo! <3 the kids are 20 months old, 3 years old & 5 years old. AND I GET MY CRISS ANGEL MAGIC KIT TOMORROW! WOO!!
07 Jan, 2011
Dale, Keith and I on the bus.. O_O
Dale; -pats my head as he's walking by because he's getting off.- Me; Uh, that was weird Dale but bye! Dale; -points at me.- I love you more!! Me; Keith, did he just say I love you more? Keith; yes.. Me; oh.. What the fu.ck!
05 Jan, 2011
OMG <3
Perfect by Hedley is such an amazing song(:
05 Jan, 2011
Dale, Shelby, Sierra & I at lunch(:
Dale; -reads the thin on my shirt.- next criss angel? Yeah right. Me; thanks for crushing my hopes! Shelby; WAIT! you know who he is? Dale; yeah. MINDFREAK! Everyone knows him. Me; no one in Alaska knows who he is. Shelby; DALE YOUR ARE NEW BESTFRIEND! Dale; -ask random dude- hey do you know criss angel? Random dude; who? Me; exactly. But I agree with Shelby your are new bestfriend!!! Sierra; but I know who he is. Shelby; no one cares! x]
05 Jan, 2011
:)
I have almost EVERY class with Shelby now! First period; language arts (don't have her) Second period; science (I do and she sits at my table!) Forum; (don't have her) Lunch Third period; math (yes) Elective A day and B day her and I have the same class In are A day elective Sierra, Shelby & I sit at the same table. The class is industrial teck btw B day is choir and we sit by each other :D
05 Jan, 2011
DQ (: x] <3
I went to DQ with Cebrina, Maggie, Keith, Chevy, Rachel, Amanda, Trevor, and Shelby(:
04 Jan, 2011
:]
I'm going to be on later, I'm hanging out with Keith(:
04 Jan, 2011
The Craiglist Killer
God.. That was messed up.. And that was based on a true story by the way.. O_O
04 Jan, 2011
Watching..
The Craiglist Killer. It's amazing
03 Jan, 2011
Anchorage x]
Shelby, Aidan, Adam, my mom and I went to Anchorage to the mall, and I got an awesome wallet from Hot Topic, but afterwards we went to Wendy's and my brother was telling my mom and us how there was an old dude staring at Shelby and I Mom; "well, who wouldn't!? Shelbys wearing a cat hat.." and then she looks at me and talks very loudly, "and we have a Criss Angel look alike over here!" And shelbys never been to hot topic before so right before we went there I told my mom where we were goin and she said, "god you two look like you work at hot topic." hahaha x]
03 Jan, 2011
Not feeling well..
Gah.. I can't sleep.. Not feeling to well.. But I'm tired..
03 Jan, 2011
Boycotting Robot Chicken >.<
They made fun of Criss Angel.. I'm no longer watching Robot Chicken.
02 Jan, 2011
Love;
Starts with a hug, builds to a kiss & ends with a tear drop<3
02 Jan, 2011
Ghost Adventures x]
Zak; "you have reached your final destination... Hell." Hahaha! There in Italy, stranded on an island. Ah, I love this show to death <3 and I got a lot of my friends addicted to it :)
02 Jan, 2011
Ghost Adventures<3
Watching a four hour marathon of it(: I haven't seen it for two weeks and I usually watch it every weekend<3 I got Shelby and Sierra and Cebrina hooked to it(: hehe
02 Jan, 2011
Facebook xD
Ask for my facebook... And maybe I'll add you O_O
31 Dec, 2010
Oh god xD
Chevy was wondering why my friend dumped him. Friend; I'll make up an excuse Me; oh like you don't like boys anymore? Friend; cara will you marry me? Me; totally not what I meant! xD :) were still up at is five am :D GUMMY BEARS!
30 Dec, 2010
Criss Deprivation D;
Dad; -shuts off tv after criss angel episode was over- Me; no! You can't do that! Dad; you've seen like five episodes! You need to stop watching him! Me; but he's my role model & I wanna me like him! Dad; you have a death wish, don't you? Me; PLEASE TURN IT BACK ON! I'M GONNA DIE OF SUDDEN LOSS OF CRISS ANGEL! PLEASE! dad; no -plays call of duty.- That turd.. I should cut off his call of duty time & see how he freakin' enjoys it >_<
30 Dec, 2010
I Be Cara(:
Well, you guys don't know much about me so here I go(: I'm not a very sociable person, and I have trust issues :3 I'm depressed, but I have my happy moments :] I absolutely love Criss Angel, i look up to him, and I wanna be him before I'm 18(: I'm only 14 years old, & my birthday is October 5th. My goals in life; to be like Criss, a magician and escape artist, & to meet him in real life :3 Obsessed with him? Maybeeeee(; nah, I'm not a crazed, insane fan, he's just my role model/idol. :) no sarcasm there. I love my bestfriends Sierra&Shelby, actually there my only friends in real life & that's fine by me :] I don't share my life story, only with Shelby & Sierra, so please don't try to get into my personal life :) I tend to fall in love to easy, & I hate it, but that's me. I'm going to be the next Criss Angel & nothings going to fu.cking stop me(: I love you guys! Bye.
29 Dec, 2010
Shelby <3
Well, her and I are bestfriends for life :) she's my sister and I'm married to her [[inside joke ;)]] her and I got in a really dumb fight last month over a boy. Silly right? Yes(: her and I will be famous together, we're the next Criss Angels we promise you that (: and nothing will get in are way <3 what will complete mine and her life is if we meet Criss Angel<3 Yeah, he's are fu.cking idol(:! Me and her have a song; I'm not okay by my chemical romance (: She says that'll I'll be the only amazing magician and escape artist, but I believe in her, she could pull off some of his things <3 I can do the mind thing very well though(:! Anywho, Shellbeebee[nickname I gave her], is my all time best friend :) wait.. She's my wife <3 haha. & I love Herr! -carabear.
29 Dec, 2010
Today, Thursday & Friday.
Today; Okay, so today I ordered the new Criss Angel magic kit and I'm getting it this Friday(: I've learned some cool card tricks :) & I can make things "disappear." (: Thursday; Well, my awesome bestfriend Shelby is spending the night (she doesn't know I got the kit shhh xD) and the next day she'll be the happiest person alive & so will I :) Friday; Magic kit! & New Years Eve. I'm gonna learn tricks all day to pull off on New Years :) I can do it too, I'm a fast learner & I'm good at memorizing. & Shelby and I are going to do some magic tricks for the school talent show :)
29 Dec, 2010
Criss Angel Magic kit
IM GETTING HIS MAGIC KIT!!! :) Shelby and I shall be th next Criss Angels
28 Dec, 2010
Shelbys/magic show :)
Okay so yesterday night all I was doing was practicing card tricks and I got some really cool ones down :) I have to do a magic show for her mom, and one for Chevy and Andrew :/ I'm gonna make Chevy and Andrew pay :) jk.. Or am I?
28 Dec, 2010
35 to 50 hours. (:
I've already been up for almost 31 hours. It's 1:40 pm and I plan on staying up for 35 to 50 hours (: woo.
27 Dec, 2010
Sierra and I through text message O_O (word for word)
Me; out of these choices pick one; ten of spades, jack of diamonds, seven of hearts, or ace of diamonds, when you get it dont tell me the card, and out of those four I'll pick two of them & if one of them is your card say yes, & I'll tell you which one. :D get it? Sierra; ya I'm reddy. Me; so you got the card? S; ya Me; concentrate on it. S; kk Me; seven of hearts or ace of diamonds.. Correct? S; ya you got one of them wooo Me; keep concentrating on it S; kk Me; is your card ace of diamonds? S; ya o.o
27 Dec, 2010
R.I.P Blake Alexander Thompsin
He died November 7th, and he was an amazing person. I truly miss him, he was a good friend and I hope he's safe now. I love him (as an older brother of course) and miss him <3 you'll be missed Blake, and I know you can't read this, but thanks for helping me through so much and always being there for me. Your amazing :)
27 Dec, 2010
Criss fucking Angel <3
I just got done watching his tv show and he's f***ing amazing! :) <3 I can't wait for my bestfriend Shelby to get his magic kit and the how to levitate video(: <3 Shelby said that I'll be the next Criss Angel O_O because we would do the guess the number thing & everytime I was one number off or right on it :) MIND FREAK!!!! <3 oh and a lot of people agree with her O_O I should start charging for this sh.it :D
26 Dec, 2010
Gahhhhhhhhhh.
Adams (brother) so spoiled! He's getting a 32 GB iPod touch 4th generation.. Mines only 8 and I had to pay for mine!! And he's not paying for his.. Gahhh.. Why am I still living with my f***ing family?
26 Dec, 2010
Narnia? Hmm.. It can't be THAT bad... Right?
Hehe. Well, for my awesomely amazing friend Sierra I'm taking her to the movies today and her and I are going to hang. On Monday I'm taking Shelby to the movies & hopefully I'll spend the night at her house. :O Shelby has baby bunnies! :) Eh, hopefully today will be loverly ( yes that's an actual word.. My English teacher says it A LOT :3) Well, carabear is sleepy. So I'm gonna sleep. Night night loverly people :) oh yeah one more thing.. Sierra and I are going to go see Narnia xD :3 Shelby & I are gonna see yogi bear or tron :3 <3
25 Dec, 2010
:)
I got speakers for my iPod that light up to the beat of the song. I'm sitting in a dark room, blasting emo music, Texting & hoping my friend will be able to go to the movies tomorrow & hopefully I can spend the night at her place. I got a bunch of things... JACK SKELETON T-SHIRT & SWEATER!!! wooo!
23 Dec, 2010
Christmas o.o
Wow, that was fast. Christmas is comin up :3 can't wait. On Friday I probably won't be on because every year my family has a huge x-mas party..
22 Dec, 2010
:'(
Adam: -punches my leg- I'm goin to kill you!! I wish you were dead!! I wish you were shot in a ditch!!! Me: -cries-
22 Dec, 2010
Insanity :(
It's as if everyone has lost there sanity and is taking it out on me. I feel like a punching bag. My "friends" are turning against me, stabbing me in the back and then leaving me behind depressed. What "friends" they were. No I didn't do anything to set them off.. People just tend to blame me for all there problems and I'm not joking with that. My "friend" Cindy blamed me for having everyone hate her... Even though she dug her own hole. It's not my fault she's an attention w****, and it's not my fault she talks behind peoples backs. -_-
22 Dec, 2010
Woah..:/
So much has changed, it makes me want to go back in time, change everything and be happy once more. It hurts to realize what has happened.. And all of this I'm realizing in one day.. All at once.. Woah.. And apparently I'm a b**** because I'm not talking to anyone in my family.. Boy I'm sure feeling the love today...
22 Dec, 2010
X)
Sierra and I. Sierra: lizards eat all the time! Me: oh so there like stoners? Sierra: yeah! They just eat and eat!! x] I'm on the phone with her.
20 Dec, 2010
:D
Watching south park. I'm bored. Lol. Monday; hanging out with Andrew, Sierra, Shelby & Chevy around town (: Tuesday; hanging out with my bestfriend Nick who lives in Washington, but he's visiting. I haven't seen him for three years. :D Wednesday; sledding Thursday; probably going to the movies with my uncle Friday; I'll hang out again with Andrew, Shelby, and all my other awesome friends :3
18 Dec, 2010
Drunk dialing xD
Travis is my moms boyfriend btw. Travis: -burst through the door- "CARA ARE YOU AWAKE!?" Me: -screams- "what the hell!?" Travis: "who are you Texting?" Me: "Sierra." Travis: "call her! Just do it!" Me: -dials sierras number and puts her on speaker.- Sierra: "cara you woke me up." Travis: "hey baby!! I haven't seen you for such along time!" Me: -laughs- Sierra: "WTF" Travis: "she's if ignoring me!!! Ahh, I got to go!" -makes fake barfing noises- Hahaha. This happened around 9 pm and it was hilarious!
18 Dec, 2010
North Pole xD
I know that sounds weird o.o but it's a town in alaska and I'm not joking! My friend just got back to Palmer from there to visit! He's awesome and I'm hanging out with him tomorrow :). Woo! I'm hanging out pretty much EVERYDAY during x-mas break with my awesome friends :D
17 Dec, 2010
X-mas break(:
Woo! Tomorrows Friday!! Assembly day!! I don't go back to school till January 4th... I think. Lol
15 Dec, 2010
Holy crap. O.o
My sister is pregnant. The baby is due July 1st!!! :p
14 Dec, 2010
Havent been on for a LONG time.
Yeah sorry for not being on!! I've been really busy... On Monday someone wrote FAG on my locker :/ and my weekend consisted of me being harassed and crying. Well, I've missed you guys!! I'll try to be on more often! Lol I might be getting home schooled.
05 Aug, 2010
Well..
I'm going to go see if my friend Jadah wants to hang out.. hopefully my day will get better.. yay.. and the rain outside isn't helping.. lol..
05 Aug, 2010
.-.
Well... *sighs..* today could be better.. way better..
28 Jun, 2010
Our Friends Studio.
Cindy and I are in a two person band (GirlsLikeBoys) you'll find us on youtube covering random crap. Apparently hers and mine voice sound gorgous together so are friend is letting us use her studio! Were so excited! :D
27 Jun, 2010
Feelings;
unloved, sick... everythings wrong.
16 Jun, 2010
ROFL! Phone convo with Cindy!
Me; cindy there's a porcipine out side! Cindy; let's name it fred. Mom; something about calling animal control. Me: *walks into my moms room and asks my aunt and my mom* Are you guys going to take Fred away from us? Mom&&Aunt; *laughs* Me; *goes back to my room and watches Fred out the window and then runs back to my moms room.* CALL THE COPS! FRED RAN AWAY! ROFL!
16 Jun, 2010
Oh sh.it Cindy. :D
I hope to god you can stay up past 6 AM! Okay so I went to my cousins wedding a week ago and now I have to go to one on Friday and cindys most likely coming with! WOO! :P && were staying in Anchorage in hotels so i expect the party is going to last till 6 AM or later knowing my family. So get ready Cindy because I have a feeling that were going to be up for a LOOOOOONNNNNGGG time. <3 :P
16 Jun, 2010
Hinder&&Shinedown bit.ches. <3
I Get To See Hinder&&Shinedown! Jenny Is Giving Me A Tickett For Hinder&&My Dad Is Taking Me To Shinedown. WOO! Can't Waitt. :] <3
10 Jun, 2010
Moved
Sorry my mom moved into an apartment. She doesn't have internet yet. My dad does though so yeah.. when I go to a friends house or my dads I'll try to be on. Ohkay? Sorry.
01 Jun, 2010
Hinder or Shinedown
Damnit. There both coming up but I can only see one band. :( I CANT DECIDE!
27 May, 2010
Cindy and mines phone conversation!
Me; I am iron man! cindy: I j**.zed in my pants! Me; I love you brownie! Me; I'm iron man making crystal light Cindy; *laughs* Me; brownies are delicious! Cindy; And magically nutritious! Me; is your cousin still there? Cindy; Yes she's in my liiving room watching dora the explorer. Me; Dora is an illegal immigrant! Cindy: I have to tell my cousin that! Me: *laughs* Cindy; did she hop the border or something? Me; yes! cindy; we have to kill her!
26 May, 2010
Dana.
With her gone I don't know what to do in real life. My soul feels dead without her. She was practically my sister. Last night I had a dream.. it wasn't really a nightmare, but it caused me to wake up crying.. but they were tears of joy.. she came home early in my dream and I was happy, and mad. Mad because of what she did. After that dream I realized how much I truly missed her. It's almost like she died. She's not around anymore. No one in my family hasn't noticed her being gone. Now that I think of it, she's been gone for like 3 months now and it hurts to think of how much longer she has to be gone. :( She helped me through everything and she's the only one who knows my life story and always will be the only one. I still keep stuff from people. I knew her life story. I helped her. I love her as a sister of course and If she did come back early I would be happy, but she probably wont. =[ My heart feels like it stopped, my soul feels dead, I can't think straight. I just want Dana here. :(
26 May, 2010
To;
To; Dana, Robert, Cindy, Elmo, James, and Sierra, Without you guys I wouldn't even still be alive anymore. My friends are keeping me alive. Without my friends I would've died a LONG time ago. I love you guys all and care about you guys. Thanks for being there for me. I hope you guys have wonderful lifes and I hope we stay friends for a long time. Again thank you. <3 Love, Carabear.
25 May, 2010
Friends;
Dana; she is fu.cking amazingly awesome. I've known her sense kindergarten and ever sense then we've been best friends! She's practically my sister! I love you! Robert; He's one of my bestest friends ever. :] Thanks for being there for me and helping me with my story! I love you! Cindy; Hmm.. where to start? Well, she's my fu.cking dork buddy! She's always there for me! I love you! Elmo; well, I've known her for what 1 year or 1 years? Anyway, she is fu.cking awesome! She's like an older sister to me! I love you! James; Your really nice and funny. Your a wonderful friend and I've known you for 2 years I believe. I love you! Those people are fu.cking amazing and you better not fu.ck with them! <3 Thanks for being my friend and being there for me! I love you guys! <3 :] ---Carabear[x
25 May, 2010
Honestly
I don't know what to do anymore. My life is just getting worse. June 1st my mom will be homeless and I'm moving in with my a**hole of a father. :/
25 May, 2010
About me.
I'm nice, shy, sensitive, dorky, emotional and creative. I supposedly write good stories and poems and people think I'll be famous before 15. No I'm not emo, I'm scene. I'm waiting for my hair to grow out to get the scene hair cut. Cindy (disturbiagirl) is amazingly awesome. I know her in real life and I hope her&&I stay friends forever. <3 Dana (XxXBabyGirlXxX) I know in real life and we've been best friend sense kindergarten. She is dorky, and awesome, but I love you like a sister. Well, get to know me. Don't call me fake because I'm not. Hate me; I don't care.. trust me a lot of people do. :] -Carabear :]
25 May, 2010
My Turn To Die. <3
I cry every night, I just want to die. My heart will not fail, I rather be in jail. My family doesn't care, Why am I even here? I slit my throat, I fall down cold. My heart slows down. I choke on blood, I try to scream. Your all I had, I try to forget your name. I'm all alone, Under ground, Dead silence all around. Do not cry, It was my turn to die.
25 May, 2010
FML!
I'm moving in with my dad and my mom is going to be homeless. *cries* FML! I HATE MY FUCKING DAD!
25 May, 2010
Nightmares
I Expect one after watching this movie.. :/ Quarintine is fu.cked up. o.o
23 May, 2010
Famous o.o
A lot of people say I'll be famous before 15.. and I'm like, "Holy sh.it why before 15?" and their like, "because your 13 and your stories are fu.cking awesome! And so are your poems!" and I'm like, "Eh.. school will be scary." o.o
23 May, 2010
Europe. :]
when Cindy becomes a rockstar and I become a famous author then were going to move to Europe. :] Can't wait. <3
22 May, 2010
Emo Elephants Huh?
Eh.. I'm a very strange person. :D Hello, Robert. -Carabear.
22 May, 2010
Emo Elephants
Woah...I'm hacking Cara.....strange things are goin on Hi Cara...Roberto here <3
22 May, 2010
My true feelings. POEM
My true feelings, are hidden and unknown as I sit hear all alone. I tear my skin, I shed some tears, I feel like I've been living in fear. My heart aches with pain, Ive been living like this my whole life, I grab for a knife. My soul is dead, I can't breath, All I think about is death. My heart is shattered and bruised, I have been used, To many times, I have cried. Those are my true feelings, Now do you guys see, How much your hurting me?
21 May, 2010
School is out!
Thank god. :D
19 May, 2010
Language arts Teacher. :]
Okay so my LA (Language Arts) teacher read one of my stories (she loves my stories&& I have to admit there pretty fu.cked up) and after school I went to get the story.. LA Teacher; Your the next steven king. Me: WOOOO! Thank you. And I walked out. She's recommending the LA teacher for 8th grade to have me in advance. :] Haha. I now feel like a nerd. :]
18 May, 2010
<3
I love my; dorkified, perverted, crazyily awesome friends. <3 :]
16 May, 2010
Four Months Old..
when i saw my first scary movie, in a movie theater, and it was SCREAM.. wow..
16 May, 2010
Sleeping Disorder.
I Have A Sleeping Disorder&&I Get It From My Mom :// Yess NightTerrors Are A Sleeping Disorder..
16 May, 2010
Eh..
Last Night Was Fun. :D Sierra&&I Got Into A Fight With Candeh! He He x]
11 May, 2010
Yay! :]
Dana Can Recieve//Send Letterrs. :3 Thank Gawd! I Miss Herr. :]
11 May, 2010
Lonley Soul. :3
Okay. It's called Lonley Soul; We use to be bestfriends, "Together till the end." Now you gone, I'm lost, confused, and cold. Left here by a stone. Why'd you tear my heart? Why are we miles apart? I'm; out of sight, out of mind. Memories fade, life turns black and grey. I'm crying, slowly dieing. I'm a lonley soul... In a world that's dark and cold.
05 May, 2010
Dead Rosee; :3
This rose is faded and grey, The leaves turning to dust. Just like me, alone in the coffin. No one cared for me, and never will. I'm wasting away, just like the rose. I was once alive, and breathing. Joyful and hyper. Now I'm dead.. Like the rose that use to be red.
04 May, 2010
:// Eh.. Sorryy.
I Know I Haven't Been On Much, But I Haven't Been In The Best Mood. Sorryy! I Miss Dana Sooooo Much&&She Tried Calling (Their Aloud To Call People Where Shes At For A Certain Time) And My Sisterr Wouldn't Let Me Answer It. ='[. She's Going To Be Gonee For 6month To A Yearr! Sorry If I'm Not On Much.. Just Haven't Been In The Best Mood.. But.. I Am Sorta Now.. :// <3 You Guys. ;]
19 Apr, 2010
Today Was The Bomb! (:
My friend and I went to this park we went on a merry go round thing and we were pretending to push each other off and this one chick was giving us disaproving looks, but I was standing on the edge and I wasn't ready but my friend pushed me anyways! It was hilarious! And then I was swinging on a swing being depressed and laughing like a crazy person while my friend laid on the ground looking dead and a guy walking his dog stopped and stared at me like "should I keep walking past them or turn back now and call the cops?" type of look. It was hilarious! And then we spun the thing and jumped on and I went to walk to the middle and I stood up for a little bit and then I walked back towards the edge but my foot got caught in a bar and I fell! Also we headed to Fred Meyer and I got a blue amp (i had one yesterday and my other friend and I went to the same park) and she got Bawls! Oh and were going back there this Friday with a whole bunch of our friends! Hehe can't wait!
15 Apr, 2010
Two Favorite Actors(:
Leonardo Dicaprio&&Jude Law. (: There Soooo Hot! Hehe.
15 Apr, 2010
Hello, Seattle[:
Yes, I'm Most Likely Moving To Seattle, Washington With My Madre
