07 Nov, 2008

MIght

This might b my last weekend on here..... im not 100% sure but i think im goin 2 leave as of sunday i think....idk 4 sure yet but i think so...

07 Nov, 2008

poem/quote

I have learned to notice: Your close friends become strangers, lollipops turn into cigarettes , the innocent ones turn into s***s, homework is in the trash, soda becomes vodka, kisses turn into s**. Remeber when ; getting high meant swinging on the swing set, when protection meant wearing a helmet, the worst thing you could get from boys was cooties, dads shoulders were the highest place on earth, and mom was your hero, Your worst enemys were your siblings, race issues were about who ran the fastest, the only drug you knew was cough medicine, wearing a skirt didnt make you a s***, the only thing that hurt you was skinned knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?; and we couldnt wait to grow up...? Books Get This Layout!

06 Nov, 2008

http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/friend/poetry.asp?poem=19892

Failed friendships melanie s. Do u kno wht it feels like 2 b left behind? Losin everyone around u in such little time. I try not 2 worry since there left in the past but its hard going through life knowin nothing ever lasts. Its hard 2 hide behind this frown. When on the inside ur on the verge of a breakdown. I’ve lost everyone that meant the world 2 me (pluz some). All I have left r the memories. U have no idea how badly I want them back. But they’ve left me in the past which was their plan of attack. The pain of losing them will never go away. Im tired of feeling this everyday. I feel like I no longer belong. I fake my happiness 2 show nothings wrong.

03 Nov, 2008

Whts Left?

Whats left when ur friends keep decreasin and disappearin like a diease that ur missin?? Wht happens when all u can think bout is the past and the future....but never the present?? Wht happens that everyone that said they would b ur friend 4ever....aren't there...does that mean 4ever is gone? Wht happens when the poeple said they lovedd u...yet screwed everythin up in ur life? Wht happens when everythin u once though u had is gone? Is there really anythin left?

02 Nov, 2008

Somethin bout 2day

2 start off with my bad day! I finally got some sleep 2 have a nightmare..endin with me killin myself....yea...talk bout bad start 2 a day...then i haven't aten like anythin 2day...cuz im nit hungrey which is kind of odd!! ahh! and i can't stop thinkin bout that nightmare...and then....i decided 2 change how i wear my make up...and yea it looks kool i like it...but NOW my eyes burn!! And idk y its weird...So yea thats most of my day and i don't like it!

30 Oct, 2008

I Give Up! (i no write this) but i feel like this

I hate this me I hate the way I am I want to be like her I want to be like that The mirror is damned Showing me what I need to be To survive To go on Scratching away at the surface of this kin The flesh raw and bleeding Crimson pools begin to form The torture The self inflicted wounds Im done I give up I can never be her The image is perfect The flawless body you all say that you see Why can't I see it Why can't I see me The way that you see Im tired Im flusterd Im angered and p***ed Annoyed with no one No one but me Im working out Im eating right But yet I still cannot see This girl that you see You say she is pretty So funny and smart I see nothing worth remembering Nothing and no one My color is now crimson The pools and the rivers Surrounding and running From my body to the floor You all be damned I am done I am through I give up on this life

30 Oct, 2008

True right now (i didn't write)

it's hard to love others th way you love yourself, when you don't even like yourself doesn't anyone want to quit ? doesn't anyone want to forfit ? cause the voices in my head keep telling me i'm not worth it doesn't anyone want to rescue me ? doesn't anyone want the heroes part ? even one person who knows CPR might resurect my heart i'm waiting until someone else decides i give others the choice wether i live or die i force it on others when i know it's on me i'm just waiting for someone to give me the okay to brethe doesn't anyone want to keep me ? doesn't anyone want to show love ? cause i'm hearing friendly whispers angelic voices from above doesn't anyone want to shut up the demons ? doesn't anyone want to set me free ? cause i thought i saw yoo smiling and you were smiling just for me doesn't anyone want to give up ? doesn't anyone want to quit ? doesn't anyone want to shoot me ? doesn't anyone want me dead ? cause that's what my demons repeat each and every day inside my head doesn't anyone want to save me ? doesn't anyone want me alive ? even just one single hand raised will give me the will to survive so far it's zero to none doesn't anyone ... ? it's hard to keep on living when you haven't got a soul it's hard to fake a smile, when your demon's in control it's hard to say " good morning " when you know it's all a lie cause it's just like all the others one more reason for you to die doesn't anyone want to stop me ? doesn't anyone care what i said ? doesn't anyone hear my petty complaints nd just smack me upside my head doesn't anyone want to pull me out of myself made grave ? it's hard to keep on moving when you trip over every step it's hard to keep focused when your mind'd somewhere else doesn't anyone want to give up ? doesn't anyone want to quit ? if your just waiting for anyone to care well i'm telling you i'm it so far it's zero to one i'm the anyone !!

30 Oct, 2008

Alone (i didn't write)

She feels so alone inside So lonely in there She feels as if no one can help her through No one knows what is happening to her She was okay in the begging but now She is almost just a figure walking. She can’t tell anyone She is just too scared. With more and more happening all around She has no clue what to do anymore So she is so close to saying this once and for all ‘I’m giving up now, I finally give up tonight’

30 Oct, 2008

Poem i didn't write but sounds good

You don’t really get it, so don’t even try. Push aside your ideas, lay down and cry. Just give up, it’s easy, no one really cares. Forget your loud speeches, ignore the promised stares. Stop the mental progress, never make a plan. Concentrate on getting old, never believe again. Stay in bed and sleep long, ignore the door and phone. Disregard all people, it’s best to be alone. Live your insignificance avoid the logic’s edge. Spit into all common sense, lock it with a pledge. That’s the path you’ve chosen, a simple miserable lie. Since you won’t listen, stick to it and die.

30 Oct, 2008

Blonde stuff lolz funny but not nice funny

Q: Why don't blondes call 911 in an emergency? A: They can't remember the number. Q: Why don't blondes call 911 in an emergency? A: She can't find the number 11 on the telephone buttons. Q: How many blondes does it take to change a lightbulb? A: "What's a lightbulb?" Q: How many blondes does it take to change a lightbulb? A: Two. One to hold the Diet Pepsi, and one to call, "Daaady!" Q: How do you get rid of blondes? A: Form a circle, give each blonde a g**, and tell them they are a firing squad. Q: Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, a dumb blonde, and a smart blonde are walking down the street when they spot a $10 bill. Who picks it up? A: The dumb blonde! because, there is no such thing as Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, or a smart blonde. Q: Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, a dumb blonde, and a smart blonde are walking down the street when they spot a $10 bill. Who picks it up? A: None of them, two don't exist and the dumb blonde thought it was a gum wrapper. How does a blonde drown a fish? She puts it under water. How does a blonde kill a bird? She throws it off a roof. How do you know if a blonde likes you? She sleeps with you 2 nights in a row. How do you get a blonde to marry you? Tell her she's pregnant. What do you call a virgin blonde? A myth.

30 Oct, 2008

Funny londe jokes that r soo true 4 me (yea..i blonde o well lolz)

Q: Why don't blondes call 911 in an emergency? A: They can't remember the number. Q: Why don't blondes call 911 in an emergency? A: She can't find the number 11 on the telephone buttons. Q: How many blondes does it take to change a lightbulb? A: "What's a lightbulb?" Q: How many blondes does it take to change a lightbulb? A: Two. One to hold the Diet Pepsi, and one to call, "Daaady!" Q: How do you get rid of blondes? A: Form a circle, give each blonde a g**, and tell them they are a firing squad. Q: Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, a dumb blonde, and a smart blonde are walking down the street when they spot a $10 bill. Who picks it up? A: The dumb blonde! because, there is no such thing as Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, or a smart blonde.

30 Oct, 2008

Intrestin mornin!

ok so this mornin i had 2 wake up and so like the radio was unplugged so i pluuged it in and i turned it on (remeber that am and fm is on a radio) and like...i turned it on and it was all fuzzy and i had like no sleep so all i could think of was scary aliens and i was flippin out so i hurried up and showered and got out and i unplugged the radio 4gettin batteries in the radio so when power turns off wow.. u can still c it so like i was flippin out! and i tried 1 last time...come 2 find out... i just had it on stupid am radio and i was like....wow i blonde

28 Oct, 2008

When?

When does life look up? turn out good?? Like yea everyday somethin makes me laugh but its not the same.i want a good dayyear life!!but that might not happpen. My friendsr literally killin me in the inside. mayb not literally killin me.but mentally they r. and its not good.every night i feel like crying but i can't. thats wrong

27 Oct, 2008

Wheres the end button

i can't take it no more...WHERES THE OFF BUTTON!!! Shes like my best friend in this entire world i tell her 2 MUCH!! and the last year or 2 shes like ditched me she got her 1st major boyfriend and yea i get it kooz ur happy...but then when hes around im nothin nothin at all..and then i feel like s***z...cuz mayb i am nothin mayb i don't deserve 2 take up space in this world...but...idk i guess maybe im the wrong 1 mayb...best friends leave when they get bfs idk anymorez but if this is how life goes....then idk how much more i can take...i try 2 B HAPPY LIKE EVERYONE EXPECTS!!but how much more ican take idk...Im just...cryin inside i guess evryday but on the outside tryin 2 b happyz....but how much can 1 person take?!?!?! idk no more...but i have a feelin its goin 2 end SOON mayb 2 soon...So srry 4 this blog but ...idk anymorez =*( bye i guess

27 Oct, 2008

When i turn 18!! (my dream lolz)

I want 2 get my TONUAGE PIERCED!! hell yea!! lolz Everyone says it hurts thought...and when it comes 2 pain I HATE IT!! But like i really want it done...But if u kno if it hurts MESSAGE ME!! please!! lolz im beggin u IF U KNO TELL ME!! i want it done soo BADLY!!

26 Oct, 2008

favorite song little old though!

Namesake to Elisabeth Her daddy's pride and joy Baptized in her mama's tears soon after she was born 'Cause the doctor said she'd never live To see her sweet sixteen It's a miracle she beat those odds And there's still no promise She will see tomorrow It makes me wonder How life can give someone so much and take so much away Oh, Elisabeth You're a teacher you're a saint And I'm so glad you came to us Elisabeth, you make the world a better place With the kindness of your smile and your love And your beauty will live on and on Elisabeth She might not ever marry Or hold a baby of her own Things we all take for granted Are the things she may never know But she believes there's always hope And that's all she really has So she walks through life with passion and With dignity and class And when she cries, she cries in silence But never for herself She cries for everybody else, for everybody else Oh, Elisabeth You're a teacher you're a saint And I'm so glad you came to us Elisabeth, you make the world a better place With the kindness of your smile and your love And your beauty will live on and on Elisabeth And I'm so glad you came to us Elisabeth, you make the world a better place With the kindness of your smile and your love And your beauty will live on and on

25 Oct, 2008

Need!!

People I s***ed in alot of helium and killed MANY brain cells!! lolz But But I WANT MORE HELIUM!!! ME NEED MORE HELIUM!!

25 Oct, 2008

Might Might not

I might leave i might not im not sure...all my friends have llike left on here and the people who haven't don't like me at all...

25 Oct, 2008

Srry =(

Im srry that u ppl had 2 deal with me i srry...idk anymore its like...evythin everyone i try 2 help...i ruin...its not fairz..i guess

25 Oct, 2008

Later...

Message me!! I might b on later 2day idk..anymore cuz like theres weird stuff happenin...

22 Oct, 2008

Srry...

If i like took u off my friends and u want it 2 b on it...just tell me i will add u again!

21 Oct, 2008

Scary....abortion....Makes me sad....

4,000 babies every day....r killed by abortion.....Whts the cost of abortion??? a human being life..... Only half the patients who go into an abortion clinic come out alive...I've noticed that everybody that is for abortion has already been born...Abortion is killing a human being

20 Oct, 2008

Complicated...

I thought it was supose 2 b good 2 have lots of friends...but it seems 2 just make everythin way 2 complicated...and it always makes me feel like krap...cuz i always am dissapointin 1 of my friends...which leaves everyone else but a few friends happy...and me feelin like a a**...

20 Oct, 2008

Kool Song Thats stuck in my head..well kiddish song

Bow chika bow-wow, That's what my baby says. Mow mow mow, And my heart starts pumpin'. Chika chika choo wow Never gonna stop Gitchi gitchi goo means that i love you

19 Oct, 2008

The Perfect Guy Will....

*Text her EVERY 10 to 20 min. 2 c how shes doin. *Stay on the phone with her even when shes not sayin anythin. *tease her, but let her tease back. * Stay up all night with her when shes sick. *Watch her fav. movie with her. * Don't wipe ur mouth after kissing her. *Give her the World. *Let her wear there clothes. *When she's bored and sad, hang out with her. *Let her kno shes important. *Kiss her in the pourin rain. * When she runs up cryin.. The 1st thing he says is "who's a** am i kickin?" *

19 Oct, 2008

Cute Foward

*did u kno kissin is healthy. *Bananas r good 4 cramps. *Its good 2 cry. *chicken noodle soup actually makes u feel better. *94% of boys would love it if u sent them flowers. * It is true guys DO insult u if they like u. * 89% of guys want u 2 make the 1st move. *Chocolate really does make u feel better. *Guys actually think its cute when u mess up. *A true friend NEVER judges. * only 1 guy is worth ur tears. *More guys then girls will read this. *Everyone loves surprises.

19 Oct, 2008

Sexii!!

My pic. is some s**ii sockz!! lolz But they weren't my sockz....Lolz but tehy kept my feet REALLY warm lolz!

19 Oct, 2008

Wht did i do!!

HEY! Omg so 2day is my b-day...im sure its kind of...umm not fidden no more!! idk who ruined it...but somebody did lolz! Anyways so yesterday i petted a goat that was 3 weeks old and a cow!! lolz don't ask but it was...koolz i guess...can't say i pet a goat or cows...very often!! lolz Ummm i tried carvin a pumpkin 2...it didn't go very well though lolz! i hung out with my friend ALL day 2!! lolz I LOVED IT!! abd umm wht else did i do...hmmmm.. And i frooze outside last night..cuz i was lookin at the stars...on my roof...And It Was COLD!!! but fun!! Yeea...thats bout it but !! BYE!

17 Oct, 2008

Stupid chair.../LUIGI PERSON!

I dropped a chair on my toe...on accident 2day...and now it hurts..AND LUIGI IS A LAWBREAKER HE BREAKS THE LAW ALOT!! HE HE HE....A LAWBREAKER!!

16 Oct, 2008

Best Song EVER!!

Bad Girlfriend by theory of a deadman...or somethin like that ITS A SONG ONCE U LISTEN 2 IT!! u will like never 4get it ...i 4get eveythin but i still kno this song...lolz I LOVE IT! but its a nasty song like not appropriate 4 young pplz...

16 Oct, 2008

WHY!!

Why am i always soo cold...until i lay in my bed...then im like..its soo hot lolz not fair..but i freezin!! Br... anyways lolz.....LETS GO SUMMER!! lolz i ready 4 summer again lolz

16 Oct, 2008

2 many

700 good times, 600 laughs, 500 smiles, 400 great memeories, 300 jokes, 200 great times, 100 secrects, 1 reason BEST FRIENDS!

16 Oct, 2008

jealous! (not really but i like it) lolz

You're just jealous that me and my FRIENDS can act RETARDED in PUBLIC, but people still { love us }

16 Oct, 2008

Never

Never say goodbye....because goodbye means Goin Away and goin away means 4getting

16 Oct, 2008

i am (funny..i think)

I am who i am and srry but ur approval isn't needed...lolz

16 Oct, 2008

Real Friend!

A real friend isn't the person who is nice 2 u 2 ur face. Its the person thats nice 2 u behind ur back!

16 Oct, 2008

Pride!

When it rains on ur pride BREAK_OUT_THE.SLIP AND SLIDE!! lolz

16 Oct, 2008

Sad but soo true

Oh, Don't worry! You didn't break me. No sweetie YOU COMPLETLY destroyed me!!

16 Oct, 2008

Bff

A hug is worth a thosand words....a friend is worth a million more

16 Oct, 2008

Lolz

Freinds r god's way of apoligizing 4 out familes! lolz.

16 Oct, 2008

Lost

I have lost a few friends by illiness....but some others by the sheer inablity 2 b able 2 cross the damn street

15 Oct, 2008

Ice!

I am soo freezin right now.... And like its bad..l i ran out of ideas on how 2 get warmer lolz so i just goin 2 go have fun...and if i become ice..i guess i will b ice lolz

15 Oct, 2008

My 5+ 1 friends lolz

1) MilkyWayBabe because SHES AWESOME! 2) hardrockownsyou - well he use 2 b my friend i still talk 2 him! lolz 3) emo_luigi- HES AWESOME! i joke around with him all the time and HES A LAWBREAKER!!!! i tell u! lolz don't ask... 4) redneck-chick01 - SHES MY SLUTTY FRIEND!! Shes such a s***...BUT SHES MY BFFL WELL more like my sister lolz 5) joshuah1188- Hes always there He always talks 2 me and its kool 5+1) kronic16- Even though he's like never on! When he is he is awesome!

15 Oct, 2008

Tu Madre...

Yes u just got burnt in spanish!! lolz srry i thought it was funnyz...i find stuff krap funny!

15 Oct, 2008

....is for ....

Arms r 4 huggin.... Boys r 4 kissing..... Sluts r 4 dissing..... And best friends r 4 When the boy is kissing the s*** and all u really need is a hug... =)

14 Oct, 2008

Akward

Freindship is like peein in ur pants everyone can see it but only u can feel it

14 Oct, 2008

Funny..but so me

We r the type of friends who would run in2 parked car.... lolz

14 Oct, 2008

Friend..then A BFFL

Yea a friend would lend u an umbrella in the rain ...but a true friend would take ur unbrella and say RUN BITCH RUN! lolz

14 Oct, 2008

Never

U'll always b my best friend...cuz u kno 2 much

14 Oct, 2008

My BFFL!

We have that b**** w**** skank I love u I love u 2 FRIENDSHIP

14 Oct, 2008

MY BBF! and me!

my other half…. My partner in crime… a side kick plan dirty deeds… we’re together all the time WHERE EVER she is im not far behind and if shes in danger my life 2 is ____ on da line

14 Oct, 2008

My Friends Compared 2 ur friends

I have the kind of friends that if my house was BURNIN down they would make some s’ mores and hittin on the hot fire men!

14 Oct, 2008

Good Friend...best friend

Good friends will BE THERE to take the drink away… but ur (BEST FRIEND) will look at u trippin over ur own 2 feet and say “b**** drink the rest of that. U kno we don’t want 2 waste that kinda s***” A good friend will comfort u when he rejects u but a BEST FRIEND will go up 2 him and say “it’s cause ur g**isn’t it?"

14 Oct, 2008

My best friends

Shes my best friend… break her heart…and I WILL break ur face

14 Oct, 2008

Best friends

BEST FRIENDS are the people in life that make u laugh a little louder, smile a little brighter… and live a little better

14 Oct, 2008

Scared

Shes soo scared 2 get close 2 ANYONE... becuz everyone that said i'll b there.....LEFT...

14 Oct, 2008

Mirror Mirror...

Mirror Mirror On the wall whos the biggest fool of all? It must b the girl who can't stop cryin....or mayb its the girl who kept on tryin!!

14 Oct, 2008

True...and it suckz

We IGNORE the ones who ADORE us. ADORE the ones who IGNORE us. LOVE the ones who HURT us. And HURT the ones who LOVE us!!

13 Oct, 2008

give up

Every time i try 2 give up HOPE whispers "one more try..."

13 Oct, 2008

Years from now

Years from now i won't remeber every friday night of the things that had made us laugh so hard till out stomachs hurt BUT... i will always rememeber that u were the ones who were there

13 Oct, 2008

!!

Every morning I wake up and tell myself that today is going to be a good day. Yesterday is in the past and tommrow hasn’t come yet. I havce just 1 day and im going 2 b happy bout it.

13 Oct, 2008

Fun

so i had NO school 2day which was AWESOME!! lolz but yea...so i went 4 wheelin with my friends...and then i had a couple weird...#'s textin and callin me i was like ahhhhh lolz but it was koolz so yea...i did other stuff...but yep so i had a KOOL day lolz

13 Oct, 2008

Rate me if u get bored

1) apple awesome 2) funny 3) weird but kool 4) just weird 5) The person u would love 2 talk 2 24/7 6) a complete b**** 7) a mean person

13 Oct, 2008

Simple plan!

They r awesome!! love that band...SOO MUCH!! lolz and if u don't o well lolz but i do i think there awesome! lolz

13 Oct, 2008

This sounds soo funny makes me laugh just sayin it lolz

a sticky apple up my shirt...lolz

13 Oct, 2008

HELP!

SOMEBODY MESSAGE me please i soo bored!

12 Oct, 2008

Just a quote i liked.. CUZ APPLES!! yum lolz

Girls r like apples. The best ones are at the top of the trees. The boys don't want 2 reach 4 the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt. instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think there's somethin wrong with them when in reality they're AMAZIN they just have 2 wait 4 the right boy to come alone, the one whos brave enough 2 climb all the way 2 the top.

12 Oct, 2008

Me

Im always a mess i can never keep my own secrects. i laugh too gard at stupid things... My favorite songs make me cry. I always watch 4 11:11 but i miss it more than i notice it. I live in the past, in memories i have with the people i love. I hate thinking about realirt and im soo homesick that its not even funny. But not homesick in a missing my house kind of way...mayb its more like heartsick for all the things that i can't get back. Its hard 4 me to define me i guess im just a diche- the girl who loved 2 hard and didn't get anythin in return. i don't want 2 b the heroine in some tragic love story. I just want 1 person who has NEVER given me a second thought.

12 Oct, 2008

Care..

its NO BIG DEAL... really. Break her heart...let her down... make her cry... cuz u "care".... right?

12 Oct, 2008

Keep...

Keep ur head high...cuz theres people who would kill 2 c u fall..

12 Oct, 2008

Live Laugh Love..

u live, u laugh, u love, u learn ..... u scream... u cry.... u crash...u burn...

12 Oct, 2008

Always...

It always rains the hardest on the people that who deserve the sun...

12 Oct, 2008

..yep

U were my cure... and i was ur disease.. i was killin u..and u were savin me

12 Oct, 2008

Dear heart...

Dear heart 2day i met this boy....prepare 2 b shattered....

11 Oct, 2008

Top 10 things that rock my world...not bed...world lolz

Ok im goin 2 list the top 10 things that rock my world…not my bed…my world…duh! Lolz No real order just the order I thought of it in 1) APPLES!! If u kno me....that will make 2 much sense lolz 2) My friends 3) My family 4) My AWESOME phone cover... lolz its polka dotted 5) GUM I am like addicted lolz idk y ... ever since I met this guy..6) Talkin 2 Seether banger .. seether.. luigi .. nick red neck chick person and my other friends on here that I don’t think I have talked 2 lately 7) Textin my friends 8) Havin fun with my friends! 9) Talkin 2 my friends…..lolz LAST BUT NOT LEAST!! 10) Listenin 2 Simple Plan, paramore, and other bands…I can’t think of….

11 Oct, 2008

finally

i am soo over him now...we r just friend now no more....im done likin him i like a guy in real life...i think? hes not around right now but he comes back this sumer!! YAY! i can't wait...i think? lolz YAY!

10 Oct, 2008

MilkyWayBabe

Shes AWESOME! and i haven't even known her that long....But shes like 1 of my bestest friends probaly 1 of my top best friends!! lolz Shes awesome....and has been there 4 me which is kool.... She makes me laugh soo much lolz cuz shes sooo random like ME! lolz Anyways i hope brandon gets on soon so she'll b happier!! lolz I LOVE U ...AS A FRIEND!! lolz BYE! ps. if she reads this thanks...

09 Oct, 2008

No more waitin...

Im done waitin 2 talk 2 people...waitin 4 people 2 come back...in real life...on here im done....waitin 4 everythin IM DONE if somethins meant 2 happen it will happen otherwise i guess its not goin 2 happen...cuz im not waitin NO more

09 Oct, 2008

Clueless!!

I am really clueless i guess i tell my friends wht happened and they kno exacly wht other people they barley kno...meant...yet.. me who talk 2 them....never can figure it out....not fairz...and he says somethin...then stops talkin =*( i wanted him 2 get on soo badly...and now i think he left..or stopped talkin 2 me

09 Oct, 2008

More fun things

The nail 2 my polish.... pop to corn hot to dog mush to room ice to cream (thanks master904 ) lolz and hmm anymore...the pep 2 my mint lolz i got no more...till next time lolz

09 Oct, 2008

He would b...(i made it up)

The apple 2 my pie...The Tic...2 my tac... the aw to the esome...the sugar 2 my coffee( which i do not like coffee but brandon banger....told me it so i stole it) The most 2 my fun! The Hair 2 my tie....lolz The cell 2 my phone..The Sweet 2 my heart...The 4 to my ever...The candy 2 my heart...IDK NO MORE!! BUT I LOVE IT!!

09 Oct, 2008

My friends.....lolz

you're the PEANUT 2 my BUTTER! The STAR to my BURST! The POP to my TART! The FRUIT 2 my LOOP! but mostly you're the BEST 2 my FRIEND! lolz

08 Oct, 2008

Him....

I wait 4 him all the time....and he don't talk 2 me!! Ugh...he lies 2 me all the time.....and this s***z... and i hate it.....its wrong....

08 Oct, 2008

TOMMROW!!

Nothin is goin 2 ruin tommrow....i am goin 2 have 1 day of all happiness.....well try lolz so i might b on tommrow idk lolz

08 Oct, 2008

Blog bout me....weird..

Ok. so hmm wht can i say bout myself i don't love myself far from it i've learned 2 NEVER make 1 person ur everythin the hard way i learned that so i don't have 1 best friends i have a couple cuz i have a HUGE fear people will just disappear I have also learned 2 b willin 2 change.4 people whch IS BAD NEVER CHANGE 4 OTHER PEOPLES!! cuz itys wrong people should like u 4 u not 4 who u have become change 4 urself not them!! Hmm wht else 2 live everyday like it was ur last THATS REALLY important sometimes i wish i did more often Ummm I LOVE MY FRIENDS and i REALY like 2 guys at this molment (1 real life....1 on here) So i guess i do alot in pairs (and 2 u nasty thinkers..NO) i HATE bein alone i do ALOT with my friends (NO BAD THINKER NONE OF THAT) And when i hate somebody they normally become 1 of my FAVORITE people weird i kno!! buit i think HATE is just a STRONGER love sometimes (like friends or more love) Sooo yea lolz srry my brain is not well filtered soo srry lolz BYE!

08 Oct, 2008

SEETHER PERSON!!

He ruined my perfect drawin!!! (well as perfect as it was goin 2 get with me drawin it!!) lolz ALL CUZ he was jealcous of my picture...lolz...he NO nice....

07 Oct, 2008

Srry....

Srry ppl..i say sorry alot...but srry.....i hate bein me...i can b soo happyz....1 thing happens and everythin seems bad...ugh i hate me.....so much.....anyways SRRY PEOPLE!!

07 Oct, 2008

Answer if u want

Hit forward and place an X by all the things you've done and remove the X from the ones you have not. Answer the 30 questions at the end and send it to your friends (including me). This is for your entire life! ( ) Gone on a blind date () Skipped school ( ) Watched someone die (does a dog count?) () Been to Canada ( ) Been to Mexico ( ) Been to Florida () Been on a plane ( ) Been lost ( ) Been on the opposite side of the country ( ) Gone to Washington, DC ( ) Swam in the ocean () Cried yourself to sleep () Played cops and robbers () Recently colored with crayons () Sang Karaoke () Paid for a meal with coins only () Done something you told yourself you wouldn't ( ) Made prank phone calls ( ) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose () Caught a snowflake on your tongue () Danced in the rain () Written a letter to Santa Claus ( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe () Watched the sunrise with someone you care about () Blown bubbles () Gone ice-skating ( ) Been skinny dipping outdoors () Gone to the movies 1. Any nickname: 2. Mother's name: 3. Favorite drink? 4. Tattoos? 5. Body piercings? 6. How much do you love your job? 7. Favorite vacation spot? 8. Dream vehicle: 9. Ever been to Africa? 10. Ever eaten cookies for dinner? 11. Been on TV? 12. Ever steal any traffic sign? 13. Ever been in a car accident? 14. Drive a 2-door or 4-door vehicle? 15. Favorite salad dressing? 16. Favorite kind of pie? 17. Bedtime attire? 18. Favorite movie? 19. Favorite holiday? 20. Favorite dessert? 21. Favorite food? 22. Favorite day of the week? 23. Favorite brand of body wash? 24. Favorite toothpaste? 25. Favorite smell? 26. What do you do to relax? 27. How do you see yourself in 10 years? 28. How many siblings do you have? 29. Furthest place you will send this message? 30. Who will respond to this the fastest? ???

07 Oct, 2008

Jelly Braclets (old but funny i think)

Black- Max Blue- Blow job Pink- Flash t**s or pinus Yellow- Hug Purple- Kiss Clear- W/e snapper wants Green- Hand job Brown- Toss my salad Glow in the dark- SEX TOYS Any glitter- Girl chooses Silver(Gray)- OUTDOOR SEX Light Blue- Anal Light pink- hug & kiss Light green- Oral s** Gold- All of the above Black- s**ual intercourse Blue- blow job (alternate meaning: lap dance) Green- cunnilingus (alternate meaning: outdoor s**, hug) Clear- whatever you want (alternate meaning: hug) Orange- kiss Yellow- hug Red: lap dance Purple- a*** s** Silver- fisting White- flash your t**s Pink- flashing Gold glitter- make out Brown- toss my salad, i.e., a***ingus Glow in the dark- using s** toys glittery yellow-hugging & kissing glittery green-69 glittery purple-French glittery orange-kiss Indigo- Hand-job with b****** Clear Gold with glitter-fingering Clear blue-All of everything Clear Pink-Its the girls choice. Clear Green- All Anal Glow in the dark pink- female s** toys Glow in the dark blue- boy s** toys Glow in the dark green-Max with p***. light blue-masturbate gold-s*** on any part of body gray(silver)- flash

07 Oct, 2008

redneck-chick01

shes a SLUT!! but shes the BESTEST SLUT ever!! lolz Shes my BFFL!! lolz ...well probaly more like my sister lolz but shes A SLUT?!?!? lolz Well if she reads this HI SLUT-O!! lolz she LOVES me lolz she knos it....lolz

06 Oct, 2008

I Read It Somewhere....and its soo true

Mirror Mirror On The Wall Watch Me Break Watch Me Fall

06 Oct, 2008

Tryin....

I keep tryin 2 b happyz.. i kno that ppl like when im happier betterz..and i hate makin other ppl sad..so im tryin 2 b happy..but it seems impossible.cuz whenever i try somethin..its wrong..when i say somethin..its mean..when i do somethin someone does 2 me all the time..its mean.when i talk..its annoyin..when i don't talk..im stupid.. When i do anythin..its WRONG!..and thats it..idk anymore..mayb i should stop carin wht ppl think..but i can't..cuz if someone else..is happyz..anyone..i think is more important then me..i think?..anyone can do somethin better in this world..then me so y not try 2 make someone else..happy..

06 Oct, 2008

Apple Dippers!

Lol idk....i was goin 2 name a football team that...well that was my idea....at least lolz.....idk APPLES sound good alot lately...its KRAZY but o well.....I am goin 2 go on like a Apple only diet or somethin lolz....sounds YUMMY!! lolz...idk but wow this is a stupid blog but memeberz!!! I LOVE APPLES!

05 Oct, 2008

Razors....

I HATE them... i THINK they like me gettin cut or somethin?!?!? i was shavin my legs and i was shavin and i slipped and the razor pressed against my skin and cut side ways.....kind a deep...and it HURT!! (my clumpsy-iness gets me again....NOT FAIR) i hate them no its not fair whenever i do it these days i don't get the soap off my feet...and i slip.....MEAN SOAP AND RAZOR !!!!

04 Oct, 2008

FUN!

I am havin soo much fun lately?!?! i am soo happy lately i have learned some stuff and now everythins better i think in my life....im HPPY!

03 Oct, 2008

Da Bomb!

I LOVED homecomin it was soo fun and KRAZY! my friends hung out with me it was AWESOME! i would soo LOVE 2 have a day like that again...it was AWESOME!!

03 Oct, 2008

Yay!!

Homecomin is 2NIGHT!!! YES!! i am goin 2 hang out with friends at the game and watch us win WE HAVE 2 WIN!!! Lolz Anyways....so i might not b on but if i do not 4 2 long lolz! So YAY!! HOMECOMIN!!!

01 Oct, 2008

Nick!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! u probaly won't get on b4 i leave sooo HAPPY B-DAY....and i won't b on probaly friday night HOMECOMIN!! yay lolz....but HAPPY B-DAY!!! lolz i hope ur day was AWESOME!! lolz...C I DIDN'T 4GET!! yay!! lolz Well bye bye i guess.lolz...yep talk 2 u some time...UR NEVER on when i am...not nice lolz well if u ever get on MESSAGE ME!! lolz

01 Oct, 2008

Partyz!! lolz

I won't b on alot tommrow just until like 4pm...then i have 2 go hang out with friends and do some stuff....lolz that sounds soo wrong...in soo many ways...lolz But yep and FRIDAYS HOMECOMIN!! so i might b on until i leave 4 the game then i probaly won' b on that night...mayb late late that night...idk yet..lolz

03 Sep, 2008

Happy 24/7

I wish i could b that again i use 2 not let anythin get me down and now like everythin and anythin gets me down i let everythin hurt me and it s***z...... *boom* srry...idk bye

03 Sep, 2008

MY LIFE!!!

my life s***z...that sums it up lol..... i have like 6 close friends at my school ( i kno thats sad tell me bout it) And theres soo many s***ty and preppy girls at my school its krazy....small town but probaly like 65% is s***s or wanna be s***s.... And im Single which s***z more and soccer is out of my life and all my friends that i hang out with r always busy with school and stuff.....and life s***z....at least mine does and and and this really s***z...... I want 2 trade my life in like ASAP!!! I MISS my friends b5 the high school and stuff i was all close 2 my friends and everythin changed and it s***z i feel like cryin or somethin!! Idk I guess i have 2 make the most of the small things in my life?... i guess I HOPE HIGH SCHOOL gets ALOT better lol if not it might b the WORST...... Drama s***z thats y most of my friends aren't close anymore CUZ stupid DRAMA!!! AND preppy s***ty im all that kind of ppl......i want 2 go 2 the store and purchase a new life like ASAP!! well thats my life PEACE!

01 Sep, 2008

I can't no matter how hard i try.....

I seem 2 always screw up i can't even keep all my friends likin me and happy...... wth is wrong with me..... i can't do anythin right.....and im such a screw up i quit.....Peace!

01 Sep, 2008

Change...

Ok im not goin 2 change really 2 tell u the truth.... im me i guess and nothings ever goin 2 change that (well i guess theres a couple things that might) But i guess if u don't like me 4 me then i guess ur goin 2 hate me 4 ever cuz theres like a 2% chance i will change very slim of a chance...... So If u don't like me i guess ur never goin 2 like me but but... if u like me...idk where i was goin with that......lol Bye!

01 Sep, 2008

Dazed!!

I am so dazed lol im like i think im tired but i fell like a trillion and a half times and i keep laughin at some stupid stuff.... its weird lol

31 Aug, 2008

icon avatar stuff!! omg

My 2 like best friends on here theres more then 2 but i just noticd this bout 2 of them both the avatar things r like a white background!!! IM so smart lol (NOT)

02 Aug, 2008

I like this i think its true...

To the world u r 1 person but 2 1 person u may b their world!

01 Aug, 2008

Someone (Theres no real reason 4 this poem)

Someone wants u right now. Someone loves u right now. Someone wishes 4 u right now. Someone longs 4 u right now. Someone saw ur hurt And tried 2 heal it. Someone saw ur heart And tried 2 win it. Your soul is tired, And ur soul is tired and someone wants it 2 rest. Someone wants 2 save u, From urself Someone has seen the real u. Someone knows that it is an act, That tough guy act. Someone loves u all the same. You hurt someone so bad. You made someone cry. You made someone pay 4 ur past. U made someone hurt. Someone still cries 4 u at night, Over the loss of u. Someone loved u once, And always will. Someone wished you’de run back to her. Someone wished ur love wasn’t a lie. All these someones were me.

01 Aug, 2008

2 B Or Not 2 B!! the title makes no sense

-~~ I want to be remembered as the girl who smiled even though she had a broken heart and she could brighten your day even if she couldn't brighten her ownn <3~

27 Jul, 2008

3 Truths About Life

1) U can't touch all your teeth with ur tonuage. 2) Ur a r**** cuz u just tried it 3) Now ur smiling cuz ur a r****…..send this 2 all ur slow friends

15 Jul, 2008

Random Life Quotes

~Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.~ *Life is a song -- sing it. Life is a game -- play it. Life is a challenge -- meet it. Life is a dream -- realize it. Life is a sacrifice -- offer it. Life is love -- enjoy it.* ~ In three words, I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on~ *Life is 10 % what you make it, and 90 % how you take it* ~Enjoy life today Yesterday has gone Tomorrow may never come~ * Life isn't measured by the number of breaths you take.....but by the number of moments that take your breath away.* ~in life you gotta take the good with the bad smile with the sad.. love what you got and r e m e m b e r .. what you had ~ * There'll be tw0 dates 0n y0ur t0mbst0ne;; every0ne will read them, but the 0nly thing that matters is the little dash between them* ~ As life goes on we learn to deal with Love Loss & Lost but without Learning about those values.. what would life be??~

14 Jul, 2008

Random Quotes

-”You’ve made me realize that I’ve always been missing something I never even knew I wanted” -“It’s not that I can’t live without you, It’s that I don’t even want to try” -“When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you Now that I love you, I’m afraid to lose you” -“It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.” -A friend’s love says: “If you ever need anything, I’ll be there” True Love Says: “You’ll never need anything; I’ll be there -”Life is only worth living once you’ve found someone worth dying for.”

14 Jul, 2008

The Truth About Me By Navid M. Melo

I hate looking myself in the mirror, I hate knowing I have fear. I hate seeing what isn't there, I hate feeling that I am scared. I hate believing what isn't true, I hate believing and trusting you. I hate crying myself to sleep, Forgive me for I have dreams. I feel left out and all alone, With no one to call my own. My eyes are red and I cry blood, Please help me or I'll cry a flood. My friends see what I let them see, If they only could see the true side of me. And as I die inside with pain, Please don't think that I'm insane. Cause believe it or not I have a heart, That's been slowly torn apart.

14 Jul, 2008

Scars By Kirsten J. Kloepfer

People all around you Have to stop and stare Some will even wonder How those scars got there I have bad scars too Except mine aren't hard to hide See yours are on your skin Mine are deep inside Yes my insides damaged So cut up and torn It's not because of sickness Or because of 3rd degree burns Mine are from the past So dark and not well seen I don't have anymore nightmares In fact, I don't even dream I'm so torn apart Broken up and hurt My life has not been pleasant I've been tossed and thrown in dirt The people I have trust the most Have broken me and lied I don't have a best friend any more She had to go and die When I do the right thing wrong My life goes round and round When I wake up the next morning I'm lying on the ground My heart is somewhat broken I suffer from great pain Some people stop and wonder Is that girl insane? Though people try to help me Mend my broken heart I'm starting to get better But they'll never fill the part The part that's dark and empty Gloomy and ice cold I'm hoping I'll get better Or so I have been told You and I aren't different You suffer so do I We both have lost a great amount We both sit alone and cry People all around you Have to stop and stare Some will even wonder How those scars got there see

04 Jul, 2008

Heartbreak

another poem another line another girl pretendin shes fine. another hour another day she wishes she could get away another heartbreak another tear another excuse she dosen't want 2 hear. Another paper. Another pen. She writes she wants 2 b strong again. Another story. Another lie. Another night she will cry. Another band. Another song. Another day passed. Slowley gone..... Another scream. Another doubt. "kill me while im down" to him she'de shout. Another forced smile. Another broken heart. Just another girl wishing life would restart!!

03 Jul, 2008

True

Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that u fall apart no matter how strong u r!

02 Jul, 2008

the ring

A girl was sitting on a chair at the gas station she worked at. She looked up and saw her boyfriend walk in. As he was looking at snacks, a man walked in and pointed a g** at her. He had been admiring her ring her boyfriend had given to her as a token of his love. When he asked her to give it to him, she said no. Her boyfriend looked up just in time to see her shot. He ran over to the killer and beat him over the head with a hammer that was for sale. Then he ran and called 911. When the ambulance came, he was sobbing uncontrollably near his girlfriend. The doctor came over and felt for her pulse. Then he stood up and said she was still alive. Later at the hospital, as he was sitting beside her, he asked"Why didn't you just give him the ring?" and then she softly spoke"Because when you gave it to me, you said it was part of your love for me and I knew if I gave him the ring, I would lose that love." The next day, she was pronounced dead.

02 Jul, 2008

story

Message: Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half. Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with. Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh n silence for a while) Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game Peter: Eh? What game? Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think? Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months. Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go? Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now. Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home) Day 2: Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star. Day 3: They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time. Day 7: Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

02 Jul, 2008

part 2

Day 25: Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together for a while. Day 67: They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his a**istant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek. Day 84: Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

02 Jul, 2008

part 3

Day 99: They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench. 1:23 pm Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first. Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like? Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine. 1:43 pm Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her. Stranger: Is your name Tina? Tina: Yes, and may I help you? Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend. Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh. 11:51 pm Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket. The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.

02 Jul, 2008

part 4

Tina, Our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you. 11:58 Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU. As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days