Aug 8 2019 12:16AM
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mfg is such a ****in' grey spot in my life, man. and i HATE that the previous statement's gotta be so dramatic yet unfortunately true in my eyes.
when i think my pre-teen self wasn't as edgy and cringy as i think i then look in my sent messages and the level of horror is higher than ****ing snoop dogg, and i'm only the one millionth person sharing this thought, but i am trying to not hate the website as much as i used to; seeing all the people i used to talk to brings back somewhat fond memories but it also enforces how easy it is to just drop out of contact with people. but i think that, nowadays, it's starting to make me actually cherish the MEMORIES instead of looking back in regret on what could have been with the people i'd talk to especially. i wish i wasn't as ****in obsessive over stupid things that have happened on here but i am also trying to tell myself to not regret that but rather CELEBRATE IT, because it makes me WHO I AM TODAY, and tbh i prefer my adulthood over my childhood because i feel like this is like a rebirth where i actually have my own patterns of thought that are more structured, articulated, and not as easy to contort/change. grateful for rachel and kiran yo, i can't ****in believe a friend of 10 years, maybe almost 11 now, is a man i still talk to and goof around with, and that ur my gf of 3 years and counting rachel!!! ull be the only one seeing this anyway